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AGING


AGING

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In the silence

the words ring in

my head

that i can't seem

to let go of

book of life

and red and white

the moment

of the truth

and the cost

this has made

and knowing

now my time

is limited

i was blessed

and now i am

cursed

for a belief

for a view of love

that

should never

be undone

like that

judgement

to us

to our souls

when I know

where I belong

and where I

will be going

yet now the

silence

deafens

in the heart

that aches

for someone

I can never

be or have

till my last

breath will

I fight that

point of view

of evil that

existed only

to destory

that which

it should never

have found

to begin with

I didnt even

know

now i sit here

and contemplate

as my feet tingle

in the scars that

no one can see

but only I can

feel

they did this

deception well

and i fought

with all i had

for what it is

worth

we all strive

to reach that

higher plane

and then we

all know once

there what is

and isn't

and where it

leaves us

with my hands

in the earth

my feet walk

with the staff

like it should

and yet the

rain washed away

that pain

and took with

it a life

that felt a deep

love

and because

of that love

my soul

fought

to live

and now

the cost of that

fight is extremely

high

all i want to know

now is it all

in vain

has it all been

for nothing

the cost I paid

to live

to save the world

was it really saved

or is it just now

slowly decaying

where that time

of knowing

will leave you

empty inside

I can't help but

love

its my nature

it is all I know

as a human

now

it is all I have

and its

wasted

will it fade

will the fire leave me

lonely and

silent

the blessing

of a curse

to be in the night

without my stars

waiting

no more fear

no more

much of anything

they did it well

they played there

parts and

i hope they got

what they wanted

in the scope of

things

sparks are gone

as is the voice

as is the love

as is my hart now

as i feel it coursing

through my veins

when it comes

i will go into that

quiet sleep

but until that moment

i will not regret

i will not regret

i did all i knew

for what its worth

this frosties froth

is all poofed away

and the rich flavor

going flat sitting

in the bottle

waiting to have its

taste treasured

and now its just

sitting on the shelf

gathering dust

yet its value

is like an anniversary

a treasure

that can't be measured

the difference

from aging beer

to aging rootbeer

one is meant to

be swallowed

in within a certain time

while the other

is to be sipped

in when the age is

just right

one leaves no affect

while the other

euphoria till its gone

so the after taste

is the flavor in the mouth

both are not meant

to last for eternity

what remains is

just a memory

of that moment

like everything else

we hold dear

change comes in

with time

we can either be

aging like wine

at an angle

or souring and

fading when upright

personally

i am crooked angled

so my age is still

as good as the first

taste

but next to me

i sit alone

the games people

play when they

open an aged wine

is just not a good

scene if they don't

know how to truly

enjoy it

savor it

let it swirl

let it twirl

let the aroma

fill the nose first

then the taste

slow and sipped

not rushed and gulped

there is no fun in that

you may get the high

first but you waste

the goodness of what

its meant to be

so now i sit

and wait


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