LIES
LIES
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all the lies told
will one day come back
around
i will miss my heart
for all eternity
because of the lies
and no one knows
how i feel more
than my crying soul
for that which has
been done hurts more
than ever
why why why
truth is how can love
be so blind and yet
still care so much
how my heart will
forever ache for someone
that seems to be
not honest enough
to give me the truth
nothing i can do about that
but find a way to carry
on an it is ashame
that not another soul
will ever know how my love
could have been expressed
it is my choice
but as long as my hart aches
i can't change it
i will not love another
i can't love another
till the hole in my heart
is fixed the arrow struck me down
and into the ocean i fell
like the orion of my hart
why did i go look at that
why did it cross my mind
why does love ache so damn
bad i have loved before
i knew it well but why
does this one fucking hurt
so damn bad of all of
my lovers of all that i have
been in love with
for to this day
four that are forever someone elses
i cry and ache
alone so bloody alone
i wrote like that cause i was in love
my passion was real
my hart is real
my feelings are bloody real
as sweet as i am
and as lost as i am now
my god oh my goddess
carry my heart away
replace it with stone
make it cold so
that loves harsh wake
will never hurt me again
the last one to have
a broken hart
fix it
fix it so i can stop
crying all the damn time
know i don't hate
know i don't want to care
know i don't want
to be alone
at this fucking bottom
but i will forever more
be trapped by my own stupidity
to open my heart so deeply
to someone i didn't really know
i only thought i knew
so to the liar i hope they know
how hurt one can be
the only reason i am alive
is cause i loved so much
that they gave the chance
to live again
how could such a love so strong
be so bloody wrong
goddess ease my ache
ease my ache
so i will be ok
so i will be ok
oh all i think about is
how i want to be laid down
on that bed with arms around me
gently going to sleep
with the smell of flowers
and the candle flame burning
something i will never
feel again for all i have
is a lonely fucking bed
for love destroyed my ability
to find another
oh to the chains surrounding
my broken hart
in the grasp of the dragon claws
of years upon years
from the first to the last
that bled and bled
now the wound
doesn't bleed
yet one claw stuck there
it is still in deep
oh goddess come and
harden this ache please
so i don't care as much
so i don't feel it anymore
let it beat and let the flame
stay dim it down
so it rests in an eternal sleep
til a kiss brings it back
to life
and i can go on living
this existance
to the lies i hope they choke
on there own hatred
sorry for that feeling
once i thought
love shattered a life
i had no idea
how shattered it could get
now the glass that protected
the hart is gone
the rose petals all plucked
and the sorrow it
carries on the wind
with my tears that flow out
changing from rain
to snow to dew drops
this goddess is broken
love is broken
not sure if it will return
when i am gone it is gone
i don't won't want
to come back again
twice is too much
for any lifetime
i love so much
that is my fault
i love too much
that is always my fault
i let my hart love
when clearly
the other doesn't
so far far away now
drifting in the boat
with the flames rising
to the one that died
will i one day go too
i can't go now
but i can truly say
i miss her love
i miss my hart
i miss ...
i am missing this feeling
that has been replaced
why
if she can hear me
if she could only know
when the tears dry
they don't dry well
oh god to this sorrow
to the never ending dreams
of a space once felt
that can never return
without her i am lost forever
without her i am so bloody lost
i am trying to stop my
bloody hart from aching
for i fear it will break ending
my life it aches so damn bad
to the one that is here
who ever you are and you don't
have the guts to tell me
know how i feel
know what you have done
in the whispers of the wind
blowing out into the clouds
take my message and let
it be heard
a lonely kiss to the one
that stole me away
and took my heart with it
beat .... beat... beat... skip
skip... skip... beat...beat..beat
alive and lonely
do not tell me you like me
when you havent the guts
to really write me
so know i will never be yours
or no ones
i will not love again like that
i should have let it die long ago
i should have never tried again
i should never have been so
in love with someone
that can never be, can it?
more than a bloody mystery
liar liar liar
so i paint my life away
cause it is all i can truly
call my own
is the way i create
the way i wrote
the way i felt
was real hope they know
it was real for me
so real
to the memories
i love
and still hold dear
so real
i let go of the lies
and hold onto
the only thing i know
the truth
in my hart.
