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Poetry and Writings

THE VENUS VANGUARD


FIGHTING THE VIRAL DEMONS

VENUS'S VANGUARD

RING OF PROTECTION

IS WEAK IN THE BEGINNING

TO SWEEP OFF ONES FEET

SHIVERING SWEET ATTRACTIONS

TO THE TRAGEDIES OF THOSE

FRAGMENTED SOULS

THEY HELPED THE PLOT

TO MOTIVATE

BY THE CHASING OF THE SUN

AND MOON AROUND THE STAR

THE ELEMENTAL TATTOOS

SHIFT TO EACH TYPE OF VIRUS

EXPOSED AND THE DARKNESS

OF THE VOID

IS FEARS

FOR THE LACK OF UNDERSTANDING

IN THE WORLD

HER EYE PATCH

IS THE NATURAL BORN SIGHT

A CURSED DREADED BOND

UNBREAKABLE AND UNFORGETTABLE

BITS AND PIECES TO A LOST

ONE

OF THE ANCIENT NAMES

DAGGERS NOW TO THE

ONE THAT ONLY WANTED

PROTECTION

AS THE STAIRWAY

NARROWS ITS PATH

THE WALL TIL ITS SEEN

FULFILLED

DETERMINATION TO OVERCOME

AND PROTECT

SENT SHIVERS DOWN

MY SPINE

YET NEVER TRULY SAVING ANY

IN THE FINALITY OF IT ALL

NO LONGER THE LIGHT

THAT DRAWS THE THINGS

OUT TO THE BLINDED

SEARING PAIN

OF THOSE HEADACHES

OF THEN

AND NOW KNOWING WHY

AND WHAT THEY

REALLY BROUGHT

NO MORE MYSTERY OF THE ONE

THAT LIKED TO PLAY

THREW CHAOS OUR WAY

AND ONE THREW IT AWAY

WHILE THE OTHER TRAGEDICALLY

EXCEPTED ITS WAYS

AND YET ANOTHER

TRAPPED HERS FAR FAR AWAY

AND TOO CLOSE

BROUGHT ABOUT TO HARNESS

THE LIVING

A VIRUS WITHIN

TO OUTWARD SCARS

THE ANTIVIRAL SWITCH

TO WATCH THEM ATTACK

AND NOT ABLE TO DO A DAMN THING

WAVE OF ATTACK AFTER ATTACK

TO THE WRONGED SIDE OF THINGS

ALWAYS LEFT TO THE SADDENED HEART

SORRY OH SO SORRY

WITHIN THE DIAMONDS THAT

DON'T EXIST

GEMS OF THE CROSS THAT DO

AND TO WHAT END

TO BE ALL ELEMENTS AT ONCE

OR WITHIN A CHURCH OF SORTS

OR OUTSIDE OF IT

TO PROTECT TO OR FROM

WITH OR WITHOUT

THE DARK HAIRED

THE RED HAIRED

AND

THE GREY HAIRED

OH TO THE NEW REBORN

FAST LIGHTNING STRAIGHT

THROUGH HOPES

OF HOPE A ENEMY

OR HOPE A FRIEND

FIGURING OUT WHAT LOSSES

FILL OUT TO THE WAY

OF THE HIGHEST PRICE TO PAY

FIGURED IN THE WAY

OF THE BESERKER

AND NEVER GAVE IN TO ITS CALL

OH TO THE DAMNED

INDEPENDENCE WITHIN ME

OH TO THE FLIGHT

SOON WHEN THE TIME RAN OUT

AND THEN THE

ONE THING SHE LOVED THE MOST

NOW DARKNESS WITHOUT

THE STARS

ALL I WANT IS TO SEE

THE STARS AGAIN

THAT NEVER COME OUT

THE NIGHT CLOUDS COVERED THEM

NOW OFF AND ON THEY ARE SEEN IN ALL THEIR GLORY

WAS THIS DONE

BY MYSELF

OR SOMEONE ELSES DOING

ITS KNOWN ITS NOT OF ME

THAT I HAVE TO PAY FOR

A HUGE PRICE NOW FOR

I AM ALONE

AM I ALONE

TO BECOME SOMETHING I REFUSED

TO BECOME

WAS THAT RIGHT

OR WAS THAT WRONG

WHERE WILL THAT LEAD ME

UP OR DOWN

IS THERE A UP OR DOWN

LEFT OR RIGHT

OH TO THE GOOD

OH TO THE BLOODY EVIL I ABHOR

OH TO THE YOU

OH TO THE ME

OH TO THE US

AND TO THE THEM

LONG LONG LONG

TO THE I AND THEM

AND YOU AND THEM

AND WHAT FOLLOWED

AND WHAT CAUGHT UP TO US

AND WHY?

A CRUEL JOKE

AT THE HONEST ONES

SAKE

FOR A LOVE

FOR LOVE

ALWAYS FOR THE LOVE THAT IS DIM IN MY HEART

BUT STILL THERE

WANTING TO EXPRESS ITSELF

SOMEDAY AGAIN

WHY?

THE INCREASING DARKNESS

OH TO BREAK HER

IN THE MOMENTS THEY CALL

AND CAN'T BE RESISTED

NOT TO THE BREAKER

BUT TO THE ONE LEFT

BROKEN

WHERE IS THIS GOING

AM I IN LIMBO

AM I TO LIVE

AM I TO DIE

AM I JUST WAITING

WHY?

THE NIGHT

THE RAINING

SHOWER OF FALLING STARS

WHERE DID THEY GO

WILL THEY EVER

COME BACK

TO BE ONCE AGAIN

WITHIN THE SAME

AS BEFORE

THEY CAME BACK IN TIME

OR WILL THERE

EVER BE ANYMORE

FROM THE DARKNESS

BACK INTO THE LIGHT

TOTALLY

DRAWN TOGETHER

AS IF BY

A HIDDEN HAND

BEFORE THE VIRAL DEMONS

DESTROY ALL OF REALITY

WRITING AND FADING IN AND OUT

INTO A TRANCED STATE

THEN BACK AGAIN

THROUGH THE FLOWING

COLORFUL ENERGY

FROM TRAVELING THROUGH

ITS UNIVERSAL EXPANSE

SO ITS TIME

ALL IN THE TIME

REST THE AWOKEN

WISHED SHE COULD SLEEP

BUT REFUSED

THE HEART RETURNED

FOR TO FIND LOVE

AND LIVE LIFE TO WHAT

END

TO THE SOURCE

THE WHISPERED SOUNDS

OF THE FUTURE

UNKNOWN

IN THE SEPARATED LIVES

OF TRUTHS AND SO

OH SO MANY LIES

CAN YOU TELL ME

MORE THAN WHAT I KNOW

FOR WHAT I KNOW

SEEMS TO BE VERY LITTLE

IS THIS THE TRUTH

IS THIS WHAT IS REAL

OR WAS WHERE I WAS BEFORE REAL

AND THIS NOW MY CONTINUED

JOURNEY IN THE LAND

OF REALITY

TO THE HEAVENS

THROUGH THE REALMS

LEAVING BEHIND HELL

AND ALL THAT I TRIED TO SAVE

DID IT MEAN ANYTHING AT ALL

WAS THAT SACRIFICE REAL

SOMETHING SAYS ITS SO

DID IT TRULY BRING US BACK

AND I JUST GET STUCK

OR ARE WE ALL SLEEPING

AND THE WALKING AROUND

IN SOME KIND OF SPIRITUAL ZOMBIELAND

OH TO MY LUCID WAYS

WONDERING AND NOT SAYING

CAUSE WE DON'T WANT TO SEE

WHAT IS HAPPENING

OR ALREADY HAPPENED

CAN I LET THEM GO

WILL THEY DESTROY ME

OR HELP ME

BETWEEN THEIR TRUTHS

AND LIES

AND WHERE I WISHED TO BE

AND WHERE I AM

AND WHERE I WAS

AND WHERE WILL I BE

DETERMINED

TO BE

YET GIVEN LITTLE

TO THIS

TOTAL UNFORSEEN SPOT

OF A CURSE

OR A BLESSING

WHICH IS IT

SOMETIMES ITS BOTH

TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED

AND ALL THINK I AM NUTS

OR TO WALK THAT

FINE LINE

MY SOUL IS INTACT

I DIDN'T LOSE IT

I FOUGHT FOR IT

MASSIVELY FOUGHT FOR IT

SO WAS IT ALL IN MY HEAD

OR WAS IT REAL

DO I KNOW

WILL I KNOW

AM I ALONE

OR WILL I EVER KNOW

THE TRUTH

LEARNING NOW THAT

I AM NOT ALONE

JUST ONE THAT REMEMBERED

WHILE OTHERS FORGOT

OF THE WHY

I HEARD

WHY I LOVED

AND WHY I ALLOWED

FOR NOW

AM I LIKE THE OTHERS

IN THE MUSIC

OR AM I ALONE IN THIS

IN THAT I FEEL SO

EMERGING AND YET

THE RISE IS A LONG WAITING SLOW GRIND FOR

THE TRUE ROSE

OF A PAST

TO THE PRESENT

OF THIS LOSS

IN BETWEEN THE BLACK AND SILVER

OF TECHNICOLORS

AND ALL THE GREYS

I SHIFT IN AND OUT TOWARDS

MY FUTURE

DO I GET TO BE

WITH ETERNALLY

ONE DAY

I FEEL THAT SO BINDING IN A CLOSE PEACEFUL WALK THAT MAKES ME SMILE

OR STUCK HERE

FOR ETERNITY

IN THAT COLD DARK GROUND

I DON'T LOOK TO THAT

I SEEK TO REMAIN

IN THE WONDEROUS

ENERGY OF THAT REALM VISIONARY

WITH A CHARGED LIFE

AND WHAT WILL HAPPEN

NOW

I WANT IT TO BE

A LONG LONG TIME FROM NOW

THAT SIX FOOT HOLLOW

SHALLOW GROUND

DO I GET THAT WISH

WHEN WHAT I WAS IN

AND WHAT I AM IN

AND WHERE I WILL BE

ARE THEY ALL

THATS LEFT

THAT TRUTH

CARRIES ME OVER

INTO THE BEAUTY ALL AROUND ME

IN AND OUT

OF THE SILENCE

CAN ANYONE TELL ME

OR AM I

JUST ALONE

CAUSE IF I SAY ANYTHING

I WILL BE MARKED AGAIN

AND NO MORE HITS

DO I WANT TO CALL

ATTENTION TO THIS SOUL

JUST WANT TO LIVE AND LET LIVE

WHICH I KNOW I AM NOT

ALWAYS ALLOWED

LIKE THE BOLT

SCREWED IN OR SCREWED OUT

THE QUESTION REMAINS

FROM ALL OF HISTORY

TO ALL OF WHAT IS TO COME

FOR I KNOWLEDGE OF WHATS LONGER

HAVING NO

BLOODY CLUE

TO THE FINAL OUTCOME

I WANT TO PRAY

AND SAY YOU WILL COME

AND GET ME

YET I KNOW BETTER NOW

WHEN THAT DAY COMES

WHICH I NOW DREAD

THAT I WON'T BE ALONE IN

OR JUST BLACK TO A WHITE NOTHINGNESS

BUT DO I REALLY KNOW

WAS THIS MY ONLY

CHANCE AT GETTING UPTHERE

AND STAYING IN BLISS

OR WAS THAT REALLY INBETWEEN

SO MANY LEFT UNANSWERED

QUESTIONS

OF WHERE I CAN VISIT NOW AND WHERE I WILL NEVER BE

ABLE TO VISIT AGAIN

AND NO WAY TO EXPRESS IT

BUT WITHIN MYSELF

HERE ON A WALL

THAT NO ONE ELSE

SEEMS TO CARE TO SEE

YET

. . .

SIGH

OH TO THE NIGHTTIME

AND THE

VENUS'S VANGUARD

WHERE MY DAY IS MY TIME

AND THE NIGHT

JUST IS HERE NOW.

AFTER MIDNIGHT THE SILENCE OF MY SURROUNDINGS

IS SO PEACEFUL

YET WE DO GO ON

IN WHAT WAYS WE CAN

OH HOW I ONCE LOVED

THE NIGHT AS MUCH AS THE DAY

AND NOW I JUST

DON'T KNOW

WHAT IS WHAT

ANYMORE

BUT I KNOW I AM ALIVE

I BLEED

I HAVE PAIN

I ACHE

I CRY

I FEEL

I AM ALIVE

THAT MEANS SOMETHING

DOES IT NOT

AND HOW I WANT

TO STAY ALIVE

AS LONG AS I CAN

I KNOW MY PURPOSE

CAN'T BE OVER

FOR IT WAS BROUGHT BACK