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THE VERSES WITH CURSES


THE VERSES WITH CURSES

IN THE NIGHT AIR

WALKING TO THE STREET

ADDRESS ON THE PAPER

INVITATION

A PARTY FOR PEOPLE

OF ALL AGES

IS WHAT IT SAYS

THERE ARE TONS

OF PEOPLE I DON'T KNOW

HERE AND

THE YOUNG CHILDREN

SEEM MORE

LIVELY AND CHEERFUL

FOR THE ADULTS

WERE ALL BORING

ME

I HEAR THE TINK

OF A BUTTER KNIFE

HIT THE GLASS

RINGING OUT THROUGH

THE ROOMS LOUDLY

SO ITS THE

TIME FOR TOASTING

SO I STOOD UP

TOLD THE KIDS

TO GO AND PLAY

ALL SIX OF THEM

I WALK INTO

THE OTHER ROOM

PASSED ALL

THE GIFTS AND TOYS

IT WAS A FRIEND

OF A FRIENDS KIDS

BIRTHDAY PARTY

HOWEVER IT WAS CLEAR

THE ADULTS

USED THIS EVENT

AS AN EXCUSE TO

ENJOY THEMSELVES

AS WELL

THE ROOM

WAS PACKED WITH

SO MANY ADULTS

THAT MOVING

THROUGH THE CROWD

WAS A PUSH AND SHUFFLE

YET THEY ALL

SEEMED TO GIVE ME

PLENTY OF ROOM

SOMETIMES IT PAYS

TO HAVE A CANE

I FIND A SPOT OPEN

ON ONE OF THE

LONG COUCHES

AND

A PERSON WITH A

TRAY COMES BY

I TAKE A BIT OF CHEESE

AND A DRINK

SITTING THERE

THE ATMOSPHERE

SHIFTS TO A

STRANGE AURA

ON EVERYTHING

I NOW NOTICE

ALL THOSE SITTING

AROUND ME

AS IF I HAVE BEGUN

TO WAKE UP

FROM THE SHIFT

OF PLAYING WITH KIDS

TO HANGING WITH

ADULTS

AS IF I WAS A KID

AND NOW AN

ADULT

KNOWING

ALL THE TIME

I HAVE ALWAYS

BEEN OLDER

THAN ANYONE HERE

THERE IS A CONVERSATION

GOING AROUND

THE PEOPLE

SITTING NEAR BY

SO IT SEEMS

FRIENDLY

AND ALL LOOK

GENUINE

IN HAPPINESS

THERE IS TWO

THAT SEEM QUIET

SO I PICK A CONVERSATION

AND START IT

AND THEN LET

THEM CONTINUE IT

LOOKING AROUND

THE ROOM

AND SMILE

AT HOW MANY

ARE PAIRED OFF

IN LITTLE GROUPS

AS EACH HAS

FOUND THEIR PLACE

THINGS TO BE

INTERESTED IN

THE ONES CLOSEST

ACROSS FROM ME

ON THE OTHER TABLE

AND COUCH

HAVE STARTED

PLAYING CARDS

ANOTHER GROUP

IS GOING TO THE BALCONY

I WALK WITH THEM

THERE IS A HUGE

SCENE OF A

LARGE CITY DOWN

BELOW

THE BREEZE COMES IN

I STILL THOUGHT

OF THINGS

OF A PAST NATURE

AND

STILL PARTLY

LISTENING IN

ON THEIR CONVERSATIONS

ALL OVER THE ROOMS

I GO BACK TO

THE COUCH AND

TWO THERE NEXT TO ME

ARE VERY CLOSE

AND SNUGGLING

I DON'T WANT

TO INTERRUPT

THEIR CONVERSATION

EVEN THOUGH

IT HAS PEAKED MY INTEREST

I AM NOT

NOW ENGAGED IN IT

AS THE OBSERVER

OF ALL AND SET APART

SEEMS SO

TRULY LIKE ME

SUDDENLY

I SENSE SOMEONE

COMING UP

BEHIND ME

AND I FEEL ARMS

OVER MY SHOULDERS

AND LONG HAIR

FLOWS DOWN

ON MY NECK

AND THE SMELL OF

THE FRESHEST

AIRY SCENT

SO LIGHT AND CRISP

YET SWEET

OF JASMINE

CARRIES ALL AROUND HER

I LOOK UP

AND SAY OH SO YOU

DECIDED TO COME

CHAT WITH ME AWHILE

THOUGHT YOU WERE

BUSY WITH THE PARTY

DIRECTING

YOU SMILE

AND SAY I HAD TO

SENSED YOU WERE

LONELY

SO I DECIDED TO COME

CHANGE THAT

AT THAT MOMENT

MY INTEREST

IN EVERYONE

AROUND ME WAS

LOST ON HER

AS IT WOULD

ALWAYS BE

SHE SAID I GOT

SOMETHING FOR YOU

SO COME WITH ME

I DIDN'T HESITATE

I GOT UP AND SHE

GRABBED MY HAND

AS

I SAID WHAT

DO YOU HAVE

MY FRIEND

ITS BEEN A LONG DAY

AND I AM GETTING TIRED

SO IT HAS TO BE

IN THE WEE HOURS

OF THE NIGHT

MORNING

SHE SMILES AND

SAYS YEAH

ITS ABOUT

THREEISH

I SMILE BACK

SAYING OK

THAT MAKES SENSE

SHE SAID ITS IN

HERE

I LOOK AT HER

AND SHE SAID ITS OK

I PROMISE

WITH A LOOK

OF WORRY

BUT SHE SHAKES IT

OFF AND I

SAW IT FADE

SO I REGISTER IT

BUT IGNORE IT

I SAID OH NOW

YOU MAKING A PROMISE

I MUST BE

IN TROUBLE NOW

CHUCKLING

YOU JUST

LOOK BACK AT ME

WITH A BLANK LOOK

THAT STARES RIGHT

THROUGH ME

FROM ACROSS THE ROOM

AND SHE IS

ALWAYS LIKE THIS

SHOWING LITTLE TO NO

EMOTIONS

STRONGER THAN

WHAT I CAN DO MYSELF

SOMETIMES I

SEE IT IN HER EYES

AND SOMETIMES

I DON'T

I JUST SMILE

NOT SAYING A WORD

BACK

BUT ITS ACKNOWLEDGED

THAT SOMETHING

IS NOT RIGHT

I GO IN THE ROOM

AND THERE ARE A FEW

GROUPS OF PEOPLE

HUDDLED TOGETHER

IN SMALL PAIRS

ITS DARKER IN HERE

AND THE LIGHTING IS LOWER

I SAY THIS ISN'T

HELPING ME

STAY AWAKE DEAR

YOU JUST SMILE BACK

SAYING IF YOU ARE

THAT TIRED THEN

MAYBE YOU SHOULD GO

LAY DOWN

I DON'T MIND

I SAID NOT YET HUN

SHE SMILED OK

NODDING

ITS OVER HERE

SIT HERE

AND SO I GO TO SIT

DOWN

THEN I SHE HER

CALL OUT TO

ANOTHER AND

SHE SEEMED SO SERIOUS

AS SHE NODS

IN THE BACK

OF MY MIND

I AM LIKE

WHY DID SHE CALL

OUT TO HER

LIKE THAT

WHY

WHAT IS UP

I IGNORE IT

BUT ITS ON MY MIND

I BRUSH THE

THOUGHT AWAY

AND SAY HELLO

TO ONE SHE LEFT

ME WITH

STARTING A CONVERSATION

SHE OFFERS ME A DRINK

SHE SAYS

I AM THE GIFT

SHE TOLD ME

TO MAKE SURE I TAKE

GOOD CARE OF YOU

TONIGHT

I TAKE THE DRINK

OFFERED

AND LATER

PUT THE EMPTY

GLASS DOWN

LOOKING AT THE

SHINE ON THE EDGE

OF THE LIGHT HITTING

IT JUST SO

AND NOTICE

THAT THE AURA IS STRONGER

NOW

LIKE A WARNING SIGN

ITS BROUGHT

ME BACK AROUND

SO I GO TO GET UP

TO GET ANOTHER

DRINK

SHE GETS IT FOR ME

AND WE SIT BACK DOWN

SHE PUTS HER LEGS

OVER ON MINE

AS SHE LAYS

ACROSS THE COUCH

I SENSE HER

AROMA

AND I LET HER

KNOW THAT

THE PERFUME

FROM HER

IS STRONGER THAN

MY FRIENDS

AND I LIKE IT A LOT

SHE SAYS THAT IS PERFECT

AS SHE HANDS ME

THE DRINK

I TASTE IT

AND ITS A HIGHER

QUALITY OF WINE

MORE THAN

THE OTHER

DRINKS

SO I SIP IT SLOWLY

AND BEGIN TO RELAX

YET AS SOON

AS I DO THE ROOM

SPINS AROUND

AND I AM LIKE

WHAT KIND OF DRINK

IS THIS

IT IS VERY STRONG

I DON'T FEEL SO WELL

THE ROOM IS SPINNING

SHE JUST GRINS

WITH THIS LOOK

THAT SAYS SHE IS

WAITING FOR SOMETHING

THEN IT HITS ME

I GO OH NO I CAN'T

MOVE

OH NO WHY DID I

FALL FOR THIS

SO I SIT THERE

AND THE SCENE

CHANGES DRASTICALLY

EVERYONE

IN PAIRS ARE TURNING

NOW AND CHANGING

PLACES OVER

THE OTHERS IN THE ROOM

I WATCH IN HORROR

AS INSIDE I AM

SCREAMING

FOR THEY ARE

OTHERS LIKE ME

THEY CAN'T MOVE

AND YET WIDE AWAKE

SO THEY KNOW

WHAT IS COMING

THE FEAR IN

ALL OF US BEGINS

TO RISE

AS THE OTHERS

STANDING NOW OVER

US ALL

HAVE THIS SHINE

IN THERE EYES

THAT GLASS OVER

AND SHIFT TO A SILVER

LIKE A DIME

I AM LIKE DON'T LET

THIS HAPPEN

NOW NOT TO ME

OH I SENSE

THAT MY BODY

WANTS TO RUN

BUT ITS NOT ABLE TO

OH HELL

I SEE THE FIRST

PERSON ACROSS FROM

ME

AND I KNOW THEY

MUST BE SCREAMING

INSIDE AS LOUD

AS I AM

BUT NOTHING IS

COMING OUT

THE TERROR

OF NOT BEING ABLE TO MOVE

DOESN'T SET THE

ALARMS OFF

AS MUCH

AS THE WAY I SEE

THE GIRL OVER ME

LICKING HER TONGUE

OVER HER TEETH

AND I AM

LIKE OH HELL

I SEE THE OTHERS

OPENING OVER

THE FACES

OF THE ONES

SITTING LIKE ME

AND THEY

ARE JERKING

AND I HEAR

THE CRUNCHING SOUND

IT CHILLS ME TO

MY BONES

AS I HEAR THEIR BONES

BREAKING

AND THE SUCKING SOUND

COMING FROM

THE GNAWING

AND THE BLOOD BEGINS

TO SPURT

AND I AM LIKE

OH GOD ITS WORSE

THAN I THOUGHT

OH GOD THAT

IS MY FATE

I AM GONNA DIE

NOW

A HORRIBLE DEATH

THEN SHE IS

WALKING IN THE ROOM

AND I AM WANTING

TO SCREAM FOR

HER TO LEAVE

THEN I SEE HER

EYES ARE SILVER

AND I SHIVER

THE HAIRS ON MY ARMS

ARE ALL STANDING

TALL

MY BODY IS SWEATING

AND MY HEART IS POUNDING

IN MY CHEST

AS NOW I HEAR

THE SILENCE

OF NO MORE FEEDING

THE OTHERS ARE

LEAVING

WHEN I FINALLY OPEN

MY EYES

GOING I DON'T WANT

TO SEE

BUT I DO

THEY ARE DRAGGING

THEIR VICTIMS

WITH THEM

INTO OTHER ROOMS

ALL I CAN DO

IS WATCH HER WALK

UP TO ME SMILING

YOU DID WELL

MY DEAR

AND THE GIRL

SAYS CAN I HAVE

THE FIRST BITE

SHE SAYS NO

AND SNAPS AT HER

TO LEAVE NOW

GO FIND THE LEFT OVERS

AND THE GIRL

LEAVES

SULKING

SHE LAYS HER

HEAD IN MY LAP

AND HOLDS ON TO ME

WITH THIS

CREEPY SMILE

AS IF NOTHING WAS

GOING ON

SHE MOVES

AROUND SO SHE

HAS HER HEAD

NOW IN MY CHEST

SHE IS

LISTENING TO

MY HEART

POUNDING

AS IF ITS GONNA GO

OUT OF MY CHEST

THE FEAR IN THE ROOM

IS LEAVING

BUT MY FEAR

IS JUST GETTING

TO THE POINT

THAT I AM NO LONGER

SCREAMING

IN MY HEAD

BUT GETTING ANGRY

VERY VERY ANGRY

THEN

SHE BEGINS TO KISS

ME AND I CAN'T SEEM

TO DO NOTHING

TO RESIST THIS

MY TONGUE LOOSENS

AND I AM KISSING HER

I AM LIKE NO

AND I DON'T WANT THIS

BUT ITS LIKE I HAVE

NO CONTROL

ONLY TO SENSE

THE REACTION

SO I AM KISSING HER BACK

AND AS I AM KISSING

HER FACE SHIFTS

AS MY TONGUE ROLLS

OVER HER NOW

DISLOCATED JAW

INSIDE I AM AGAIN

SCREAMING OH GOD

HERE IT COMES

THIS THAT MOMENT

WHEN I DIE

THAT I AM GONNA

BE EATEN ALIVE

I WANT

TO WALK AWAY

RUN TO THE DOOR

OR EVEN AT THIS

POINT JUMP

OFF THE BALCONY

JUST TO GET

THIS OVER WITH

TO END THIS

HORROR

BUT I CAN'T MOVE

AN INCH

SHE LETS GO OF ME

THEN I HEAR

SCREAMS IN

MY HEAD

THAT ARE NOT MINE

HER FACE CONTORTS

AND THE ALIEN THING

POPS OUT

ITS LIKE SLIMY

AND SLOBBERING

SALIVA BUILDING

WITH A SORT OF FINGER

TENDRIL LIKE THINGS

COMING OUT OF

HER MOUTH

THEY ARE DARK BLACKISH

BROWN WITH POINTING

STICKY CLAW LIKE PINCHER

ON THE END

OF ABOUT EIGHT LEG

OR FINGER JOINTED

POINTS LIKE

FROM A BUG

THEN I SEE

SHE IS FIGHTING IT

AND I HEAR

A SHRILL COME

FROM HER

AS SHE BACKS HER

HEAD FIGHTING

WITH ALL HER WILL

TO LET ME GO

AND NOT EAT ME

I AM LIKE

WHY IS SHE

FIGHTING THIS

IF SHE IS LIKE THEM

WHY DON'T SHE JUST

DO IT

END MY MISERY

OF THIS TERROR

THE SCREAMING

IN ME STOPS

FOR A BLOOD CURDLING SECOND

AND I AM SO TERRIFIED

IT OVERWHELMS ME

I AM TRYING SO HARD

TO SHAKE MY HEAD

THEN I HEAR

SHE SAYS DON'T FEAR

ME

I WON'T EAT YOU

I PROMISE

I HAVE TAKEN THE

THIRST

AND PUT IT AWAY

DON'T RUN

AWAY FROM ME

I JUST LOOK

AT HER AND A SCREAM

FINALLY COMES

OUT AND WON'T STOP

NO MATTER HOW

HARD I WANT IT TOO

AS I SENSE

THE NUMBING WHATEVER

DRUG IS WEARING OFF

I THINK THANK GOD

I CAN NOW

START TO WORK

MY WAY OUT

OF THIS MESS

I SAY I AM NOT

GOING ANYWHERE

I AM RIGHT HERE

SHE SAYS I SENSE

YOUR FEAR

IT IS FLOWING OFF YOU

AND ITS WHAT

MAKES IT SO HARD

NOT TO EAT YOU

I AM FIGHTING

WITH EVERYTHING

IN ME NOT TO EAT

YOU CAUSE

I LOVE YOU

I AM LIKE

THIS IS NOT HAPPENING

YOU GOT TO

BE KIDDING ME

I FORCE MY HAND

UP TO HER

CHANGED MY FACE

AND PUT MY HAND

UP TO HERS

I CAN SEE

THIS IS GOING AGAINST

EVERYTHING IN YOU

EVERY BONE IN

MY BODY WANTS

TO RUN FAST FAR AWAY

BUT I LEAVE IT THERE

WAITING FOR MY

MOMENT

AND I

SAY WELL

I HAVE LOVED YOU

WHAT DO YOU

WANT ME TO SAY

RIGHT NOW

IF YOU EAT ME

YOU EAT ME

NOT MUCH

I CAN DO ABOUT IT

I FEEL ONE

OF THE FINGER CLAWS

STICK TO MY HAND

FROM HER MOUTH

AND IT GOES INTO

MY HAND

AND I AM SCREAMING

INSIDE

BUT NOT MOVING

CAUSE I STILL CAN'T

MOVE TOTALLY

I FEEL INSIDE

A RAGE BUILDING UP

AND ITS PULSING A HEAT

TO RUN THROUGH ME

AND I BEGIN

TO BEG

NO DON'T TURN

ME INTO ONE

OF YOU

I WOULD RATHER

BE FOOD

AND DEAD

THAN HAVE TO DO

THIS TO ANYONE ELSE

I DON'T WANT

TO BE A THING

LIKE YOU

I AM SCREAMING

INSIDE FOR THE

RAGE TO COME

AND TAKE OVER

FILL ME WITH A BLOOD LUST

TO KILL

TO KILL THE ONE

I LOVE

MY CHEST BEATS

SO FAST

ITS FEELING LIKE

IT WILL BURST IN

ANY SECOND

SHE IS PICKING ME

UP AND PUTTING ME

IN THE BED

IN THE OTHER ROOM

AND I SEE HER

GRABBING STRAPS

TO TIE ME DOWN

I AM LIKE

JUST GIVE ME

THAT DARN DRINK

AGAIN

AND LEAVE ME FOR DEAD

LET THEM EAT ME

DON'T DO THIS TO ME

I REFUSE

TO BE ONE OF YOU

I SEE HER

RUN THOSE MOUTH

FEELERS

FINGER THINGS

DOWN MY CHEST

TO MY HEART

SHE HOVERS OVER IT

THEN RUNNING THEM

FROM HER FACE

SO CREEPY

DOWN MY STOMACH

AND BACK UP

THEN SHE

WALKS AWAY

LEAVING ME THERE

SAYING IT TAKES

HOLD IN A FEW MINUTES

AND I WON'T BE

ABLE TO RESIST

I SAID YOU

BITCH

I WILL KILL YOU ALL

I REFUSE THIS

I WILL NOT

BE THIS

YOU HEAR ME

I WILL OVERCOME

AND IN MY

RAGE

KILL ALL OF YOU

SHE SHAKES HER HEAD

TO LEAVE ME THERE

IN A FEW MINUTES

SHE COMES BACK

WITH A GROUP

OF THEM

EXPECTING TO SEE

ME IN SOME DIFFERENT

WAY

THEY ALL STARE AT ME

SAYING TO HER

I AM THE ONLY HUMAN

LEFT HERE

AND THEY WANT

TO EAT ME NOW

CAUSE I AM NOT

CHANGING

SHE WALKS

IN AND SAYS GET AWAY

FROM HER

ALL OF YOU ARE

FULL LEAVE HER

AND ME NOW

OR I WILL

KILL YOU MYSELF

THEY ALL WALK

BACK OUT THE DOOR

AND I HEAR IT LOCK

I LAY THERE NOW HELPLESS

TO WHAT I THINK

IS COMING

MY DEATH

NOW

FOR I THOUGHT

THAT WHAT IS INSIDE OF ME

WILL COME OUT

AND I BE LIKE

HER

BUT NO SOMETHING

IN ME IS CHANGING

THAT IS A FACT

BUT ITS NOT

THE SAME AS SHE

I START TO GLOW

WITH A FIRE

FROM THE HEAT

IS LIKE BURNING

MY SKIN BUT ITS NOT

LIKE A INTENSE FEVER

THEN I SEE I AM GLOWING

BRIGHT LIKE THE SUN

IT STARTS TO COME

OUT OF MY HANDS

AND MY FEET

THEN LIKE A RING

AROUND MY HEAD

IT FORMS THERE

WITH A WEIGHT

BUT NO WAY

ITS COMING FROM ME

BUT I AM INSIDE

LOOKING OUT

TO THIS THAT IS TAKING

ME OVER

SHE SCREAMS

BACKING UP

WHAT ARE YOU

YOU ARE NOT HUMAN

THAT IS NOT

POSSIBLE

I SAY OH BUT I AM

HUMAN

AND I AM TIRED OF THIS

YOU GONNA TRY

AND EAT ME

OR KEEP ME A SLAVE

LIKE THEM

OR SHOULD I

JUST KILL YOU

RIGHT NOW

AND BE DONE WITH YOU

OR LEAVE YOU

TO REALIZE

THAT YOU ARE DONE FOR

CAUSE YOU STUCK

YOUR STUFF IN ME

AND SO I AM NOW

IN YOU

AND YOU WILL

SLOWLY

BURN UP FROM THE

INSIDE OUT

SHE SAYS I WOULD

NEVER I SWEAR

I HAVE BEEN

TRYING TO SAVE YOU

WHAT ARE YOU

FROM MYSELF

AND THE OTHERS

I LOVE YOU

I WANT TO LET YOU GO

I WAS COMING BACK

IN HERE

TO LET YOU GO

THEN I SHINE DULLER

BUT ITS STILL THERE

THEN I SAY

LET ME GO

I CAN'T CONTROL THIS

WHEN IT GETS

TO THE WHITE HOT

POINT

WHILE ITS

AT THE YELLOW

I AM STILL ME

WHEN I AM

WHITE HOT

I AM NOT ME

AND THE ANGEL

WILL TAKE OVER

YOU ALL WILL

BE DEAD

SO LET ME GO NOW

SHE BEGS ME

TO SAVE HER

I SAID THERE

IS NOTHING I CAN DO

YOU DID THIS

YOU STARTED IT

AND NOW

I AM GONNA FINISH IT

SHE WILL BE FINE

AND YOU WILL

ALL KNOW

THAT YOU CAN'T

COME TO MY

WORLD AND

TAKE IT OVER

FOR WE GUARD IT

AND ALWAYS

WILL

I CAN'T SAVE YOU

YOU WANTED TO EAT ME

YOU REFRAINED

BUT IT STARTED

TO TAKE YOU OVER

YOU STUCK IT IN

MY SKIN

WHAT DO YOU

WANT FROM ME

I WANTED TO BE

WITH YOU AND

KEEP YOU

I AM LIKE

YOU CAN'T KEEP ME

OR CONTROL ME

OR HER

ITS OVER

YOU ARE A FIEND

NOW

HOW DO YOU WANT

ME TO TAKE THIS

I LOVE YOU TOO

BUT YOU ARE MY ENEMY

I BREAK THE BONDS

ON THE BED

AND I AM STRONGER NOW

THE BRIGHTNESS

HAS HOLD

AND I LOOK AT HER

BEGGING IN FRONT OF ME

I WALK TO THE DOOR

AND THE WHITE HEAT

THE WHITE LIGHTING

NOW TAKES OVER

AND I SEE

THROUGH THE WHITE LIGHT

EACH FACE OF THEM

FROM ALL VARIED AGES

BEGIN TO SCREAMING

ONE SCREAMS

I THOUGHT THEY WERE

ALL DEAD

HOW HAS SHE SURVIVED

SHE WILL KILL US NOW

I SMILE

AND SAY

OH YES

ITS COMING

THEY START TO BURN UP

AND GO POP

AND I TURN TO HER

FOR THE LAST

I LOOK AT HER

SAYING YOU SHOULD

NEVER EVER

HAVE TRIED

TO HOLD ME AGAINST

MY WILL

I THEN JUMP OFF

THE BUILDING BALCONY

AND FLOAT DOWN

TO THE GROUND

NO WINGS JUST

FLOAT

AND THE BRIGHTNESS

BEGINS TO FADE

AS THEN I WAKE

UP TO A CAT

MEOWING IN MY EAR.


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