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RUMORS


RUMORS

WHY IS THE WORLD SO BENT

IN ON THINGS TO BE WAY

OUT OF WHAT THEY REALLY ARE

WERE OR WOULD BE

SO MANY TWISTED

WARPED AND HACKS TO

A NOBODY ALL OVER THE FACT

I USED TO HAVE A FRIEND

AND WAS SEARCHING

TRYING TO FIND AND RECONNECT

I AM NOT ANYTHING

BUT A POET, A ARTIST, AND

A HUGE MUSIC LOVER

FORGIVE AND FORGET

SOMETIMES IS EASIER

SAID THAN DONE

LET GO OF SOMETHINGS

ARE TOTALLY POSSIBLE

AND DONE!!!

WHEN THERE IS SO MANY

LIES

IT HURTS OTHERS LIVES

INVOLVED

ITS NOT A GAME

TO PLAY WITH "LIFE"

WHAT WAS SACRED AS

FRIENDSHIP NOW LOST

IN THE BLINK

PART OF IT MY FAULT

FOR TRYING TO HARD

TO SHOW MY LIFE

STRUGGLES

NEVER EXPECTED ANYTHING

BUT TO SHARE

MY WRITING

MY POETRY

MY ART

SOMEONE TOOK IT UPON

THEMSELVES TO WALKIN

AND SO MY SENSES IN THIS

TOOK OVER AND IT

CHANGED EVERYTHING

IN MY LIFE

SO LOST THOSE I HELD

VERY DEAR TO ME

OVER IT ALL

I DIDN'T KNOW THEN

BUT NOW I SO KNOW

HOW DARK SOMEONE CAN

TRULY BE

NO MORE A FOOL IT HAS

REARRANGED

WHO I WAS

WHO I AM

AND WHO I WILL BE

I AM SO OVER IT ALL

SOMETIMES TURNING

COLD AS ICE

IS NECESSARY

FOR SURVIVAL

ON THE VERY SMALL

BOTTOM THERE ARE

NOT THINGS WORTH

FIGHTING FOR

YET I SEARCH FOR

SOMETHING WORTHWHILE

HIT AFTER HIT

TAKES ITS TOLL

STRENGTH OF WILL

TO OVERCOME

NO MATTER WHAT

I AM WHO I AM

NO REGRETS YET

TO THOSE THAT WARPED

AND CHANGED AND SPREAD

RUMORS AND SO SO MANY

LIES....

DESTROYED MY HEART

I SLOWLY BUILD BACK

TO WHO I AM

AND STILL TRY TO

EXPRESS THE DEPTHS

OF ME

SO TO ALL READING THIS

KNOW I AM NOT

WITH ANYONE NOR HAVE

I BEEN FOR YEARS

I AM A WIDOW

I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING

WORTH BREAKING ANYMORE

THAN WHAT I HAVE

ALREADY LOST

AND I AM NOT A TRAGEDY

SO TO LEAVE ME ALONE

IS THE BEST FOR ONE

CAN'T REPLACE PRECIOUS

CONNECTIONS THAT COST

ME MY DAUGHTER

SO TO THIS LONELY

ROAD I AM WALKING NOW

HURTS BEYOND ANYTHING

I CAN'T REPLACE THE COST

OF MY LOSS

AND I DID NOTHING WRONG

IT BROUGHT A FALSE

WARPED DESTRUCTION

OF MY BIG LOVING HEART

TOOK EVERYTHING IN ME

TO TRUST AGAIN

TO SAY NOT TO HATE

YET IT CAME SO SO CLOSE

IT IS NOT IN ME TO DO SO

SO I WALKED AWAY

IT HAS PUSHED MY BUTTONS

TO THE BRINK

NOW I CAN I MOVE ON

AM I ALLOWED TO BE

THE FRIEND I SO DESIRED

TO BE

OR IS IT JUST THE END

NOW

I GO MY WAY

YOU GO YOUR WAY

I HAVE CRIED A RIVER

OVERFLOWING

OF THE COST

BEING PAID FOR BY ALL...

TO THE SOMEDAY WHEN

I CAN LOOK BACK

ON IT ALL

AND SAY THE DEEP LINE

IN MY HAND HAS NOT

BEEN IN VAIN

FOR WHATS CHANGED IS

FOREVER ETERNALLY

DESTROYED AND HURT

ALL INVOLVED

AND THE ACHE UNBEARABLE

YET I ENDURE IT

I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE

LOCKED IN A SITUATION

I SHOULD NEVER HAVE

BEEN IN TO BEGIN WITH

I CAN'T GET OUT

OF THIS MESS ALONE

YET I MAKE DO

THE BEST I CAN

EVEN AS STRONG AS I AM

SOME DAYS IT TAKES ITS TOLL

THIS BLESSED CURSE OF BEING

AQUARIAN IN A WORLD

GONE ALL UPSIDE DOWN

CENTERING MY MIND

MY BODY

AND MY SOUL

IS ALL I CAN DO

FOR WHATEVER IS TO COME

I FACE IT

AND LET THE ART I LOVE

TO PAINT GET ME THROUGH

FOR ROSES HAVE THORNS

ROSES WILT ONCE PLUCKED

FROM THE EARTH

I DIG MY ROOTS IN DEEP

AND WALK AWAY

ALIVE HURT BUT ALIVE!!!

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