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DIRECTIONS


DIRECTIONS THE PATHS WE TREAD LEADS US INTO THE ETERNAL DIRECTIONS LISTENING TO MUSIC I LOOK OUT THE WINDOW BRINGS ON DEJAVU SO I KNOW WHICH DIRECTION THIS NOW IS ON WALKING OUT THE DOOR TO BEGIN THE DAY FROM WORDS YESTERDAY AND THINGS THAT ANGERED ME SO AND STILL ANGER IN THE INTERJECTION OF FILES CODED AND TAKEN THEN RETURNED THE CREED TO ALWAYS VIEW THIS IS TAKE IT AS ALWAYS A MALICIOUS THING SO LEAVING ME IN A FUNK OF UNBELIEVABLE SCREAMING MOOD OF WHY ME I BECOME CALMER TODAY THE SILENCE FROM THE HILLS OVER THE SOUNDS RINGING IN MY HEAD NO MORE AS I SENSED THIS IS THE LAST DAY HOW DO I GO FORWARD SO OUT THE DOOR I GO JUST A LITTLE COLDER FROM IT ALL AND THE MISTAKES OF WHAT I DON'T KNOW TO THOSE I WISH WOULD GIVE SOME TRUTHS TO THE WHYS... TO THE DIRECTIONS WITHOUT FEAR I WILL FACE THE OUTCOME NOW SO LOST IN WHICH PATH DO I CHOOSE NOW... AND WHERE WILL IT LEAVE ME... COMING HOME TO A SCREEN THAT HAD JUST THE CMD CURSOR TOLD ME JUST HOW MESSED UP THINGS ARE... HOW DO I WALK THIS KNOWIN' IT IS A LONG ROAD ALONE I HAVE TO MAKE THE BEST OF IT AND GO ON WITH THE HOPE IN MY HEART THAT THIS WILL BE RESOLVED AND WON'T LAST FOREVER SO I TRY ALL I CAN TO RECOVER IMAGES TO OS'S TO BOOT AND FIX WITHOUT COSTING ME MONEY I DON'T HAVE THE OPTION I HAVE IS TO PAY A HIGH MONTHLY FEE FOR SOMETHING KNOWING I WILL GET SCREWED BY IT WHEN MY WORK ENDS... OR BUY A CHEAP SIMILAR THING AND START OVER... CHOICES AND CROSSROADS OF MY MOODS TO ALL OF THIS KNOWING THAT IF SOMEONE WANTS TO STAY BAD ENOUGH FOR WHATEVER REASONING HOW CAN I STOP THEM FROM DOING SO WHEN I LIMITED ON FUNDS THE ONLY WAY TO INSURE NO LINKED ANYTHING IS TO BECOME UNLINKED THAT MEANS I LOSE MY MEANS OF ART AND MAKING A LIVING AND STAYING IN CONTACT WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS MY ONLY SUPPORT TO SOCIAL OUTLETS SO YEAH I WANT TO SCREAM THERE IS NO REASON OR UNDERSTANDING OF THIS BUT TO ANGER ME BEYOND BELIEF TO WANT JUSTICE IS NOT EVEN COMING CLOSE NOW TO HOW I FEEL NEVER BEEN MAD IN MY LIFE UNTIL NOW TO THE POINT I STOOD THERE AND BROKE A METAL BAR INTO SO THAT IS UTTERLY MAD SO THE CROSSROADS IN THE DIRECTIONS OF WHERE I GO NEXT AND WHAT I DO OR HOW I DEAL WITH THIS IS SIMPLE I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT EITHER PAY OUT FOR SOMETHING I DON'T HAVE MONEY TO PAY FOR OR TRY AS I AM TO REBUILD WHAT I CAN KNOWING AT SOME POINT THE INJECTION WILL COME BACK AROUND IF THEY WANT TO BAD ENOUGH... TO THINK SOMEONE AS POOR AS I AM HAVING TO DEAL WITH THIS KIND OF LEVEL OF CYBER CRIME BLOWS MY MIND ... FOUR YEARS NOW OF HELL... HOW MUCH MORE CAN I TAKE... 8 COMPUTERS NOW AND WHO IS FRIEND AND WHO IS FOE AND WHY DOES IT ALL JUST ANGER ME SO NOW THAT I WANT TO REALLY GET JUSTICE IT LEAVES ME WITH A DIRECTION OF WORK WITH IT AND KEEP FIGHTING AND DEALING WITH THIS OR WALK AWAY LOSING ALL I HAVE PUT SO MUCH EFFORT INTO STRUGGLING TO KEEP MY LIFE AS IT IS AND NOT BE OFF GRID BUT IS IT REALLY WORTH THE PEACE OF MIND NOW TO HAVE LITTLE TO BEGIN WITH AND TO SEE, FEEL, AND KNOW DRIVES ME UP THE WALL TO THE INVISIBLE CYBER INTERJECTIONS HURTS ME TO MY CORE


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