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Poetry and Writings

BEAST


(LOVE) BEAST

S.JENSEN © 2016

IN THE MOMENTS OF

THOUGHTS WHERE

NO ONE ELSE

SITS BUT ME

HOW CAN

SADNESS STILL

RULE MY HEART

WHEN I AM

HAPPY IN ALL

AREAS BUT ONE

THIS LIFE IS

LONELY

YET I MAKE DO

HOWEVER

THIS BEAST IN ME

SCREAMS

LOOK

AT YOU

AND I SEE IT

AND SCREAM

MORE

LOOKING

STRAIGHT THROUGH

MY OWN EYES

DEEP WITHIN

AND

HOW I COULD

MAKE AN EFFORT

TO CHANGE

THAT THOUGHT

THAT PROCESS

OF SEEKING

AND HUNTING

AND WISHING

AND GUIDING

YET THE COMFORTS

OF THIS LACK

RESOUNDING LACK

ITS NOT FEAR

ITS NOT HATE

ITS JUST MEH

AS MY KID WOULD SAY

I BECOME

SO COLD

WHEN I HIDE

MY BEAST

AND NEVER

LET IT OUT

TO FIND

SOMEONE

TO LET IT OUT

ON

COULD BE

A DANGEROUS THING

HAHA

I BOTTLE IT UP

AND TRY NOT

TO THINK ON IT

CAUSE

THERE IS NO

REASON TOO

I PLEDGED TO

ONE THAT

IS NOW GONE

AND I SHOULD

BE ABLE

TO GO ON

AND FIND

AND KEEP

AND TRY

BUT A PART OF ME

LACKS

THE WILL

TO PUT EFFORT IN

WHEN THERE

IS NO RETURN

AND TO

THE ONE

THAT WOULD HAVE

BEEN

IS SO FAR AWAY

AND JUST

A DREAM

A SILLY LITTLE DREAM

THIS BEAST IN ME

HIDES THE COLORS

DEEP INSIDE

YET I AM

OPEN WITH THEM

NEVER HIDING

THEM

FOR ALL

MY TALENTS

FOR ALL MY SKILLS

THERE IS ONE

THING I LACK

AND THAT

IS THE ABILITY

TO HAVE

SOMEONE

TO LOVE ME

BACK

SOME DAYS

THIS BEAST

WANTS OUT

SO BAD

AND OTHERS

ITS LIKE

THERE IS NO

ONE TO LET

IT OUT ON

THAT MATTERS

NO ONE

TO TOUCH

NO ONE TO CARE

NO ONE

TO FEEL

NEXT TO ME

AND

YET I SEEK IT

AND

YET I DON’T

LOVE

WHY

DO YOU HAVE

TO BE SO

CRUEL TO ME

LOVE WHAT

REASON

AM I LACKING

NOW

LOVE BEAST

BECKON ME

TO LET YOU LOSE

LOVE BEAST

BECKON ME

TO LET YOU LOSE

FREE ME

OF THIS CHAIN

LIKE A NOOSE

TO

THE KNOW THYSELF

WELL IS SUPPOSED

TO LET YOU

BE GOOD FOR

ANOTHER

WHY AM

I ALWAYS

THE ONE

WITH THE TEARS

WHY DO

I PUT MY

EFFORTS INTO

PLACES I SHOULD

NEVER BE

NEVER HAVE

THINK ON IT

REALLY DEEPLY

BEAST

YOU GOT

TO LET ME GO

BEAST SAYS

NO I DON’T

YOU

GOT TO LET

YOURSELF

OPEN ME

BACK UP

THEN THE UNIVERSE

WILL BRING

THAT KINDRED SOUL

BACK AROUND

TO YOU

THERE IS SOMEONE

FOR YOU

THERE IS SOMEONE

FOR EVERYONE

WELL YEAH

BEAST

THAT IS TRUE

AND SHE DIED

I TRIED

I KEEP TRYING

I LOVE

AND YET

THAT LOVE

CAN NEVER BE

RETURNED

SO

I SIT HERE

AND

THINK

I HAVE LET

YOU RULE MY

HEART LONG ENOUGH

BEASTIE

LOVE IS

JUST NOT

FOR ME

LOOK AT

THE BEAST

ON THE OUTSIDE

AND

KNOW

THAT WHATS

INSIDE

IS JUST YOU

AND WHATS

OUTSIDE

IS JUST EVERYONE

ELSE

I ALWAYS

AM A SILLY

ROMANTIC

AND CAN’T

LET LOVES

HARSH WAKE

WALK OVER ME

I HAVE

TO DELVE IN

AND LEAVE IT THERE

FOR SO LONG

NOW

BEAST

I AM MY

OWN WORST ENEMY

THIS MONSTER

IN ME

IS NOT A BAD ONE

BY ANY MEANS

JUST I BEEN

SO ALONE

FOR SO LONG

I DON’T

KNOW HOW TO

BE ANY DIFFERENT NOW

I SHOULD JUST

MAKE PEACE

WITH THIS

INNER BEAST

AND LET IT GO

LET IT GO

LOVE BEAST

WASH OVER ME

AND CARRY ME AWAY

CAUSE

I AM JUST A BEAST

HOW DARE I

DARE TO THINK

I AM ANY DIFFERENT

IN THIS

OH HART

SHAKE THE GRIP

OF THAT BEAST

AROUND YOUR EDGES

LET THE BLOOD

FLOW OUT

FINALLY

ESCAPE

THE HURT

AND MAKE IT

DONE AND OVER WITH

THAT WAY

YOU DON’T HAVE

ANYTHING

TO WORRY ABOUT

BEASTIE

YOU HEAR ME

LOVE BEAST

I LET YOU GO

LEAVE ME

COLD AND FADED

AND TORN

AND RIPPED

AND IN SORROW

FOR ETERNITY

THAT IS

HOW I FEEL

THIS ETERNAL

SHATTERED GLASS

PIECES

PASSING ME

BY

I AM BETTER OFF

AS MY KID

SAID

LEAVE IT MOM

ITS NOT FOR YOU

WHY

DOES THAT ACHE

SO DEEP IN ME

THAT I AM

LIKE

HOW DARE YOU

DONT I BEASTIE

DESERVE IT

HELL BEYOND

DESERVE IT

OH

TO THE CURSED

BEAST IN ME

THAT NEVER

LETS ME

BE

TO FEEL THE

KISS

ON MY NECK

BEHIND MY EAR

IN THE WHISPERS

LIKE THE

BIRD SOARING

IN THE SKY

FOLLOWING

UP CLOSE

AND YET NEVER

BEING

THAT TOUCH

OF SKIN

THAT FEEL OF

ELECTRICITY

FLOWING IN YOU

THROUGH YOU

LIGHTING UP

EVERYTHING YOU DO

IT FEEDS ON ME

IT FEEDS ON US

AND YET

THE LOVE BEAST

IS SO DENIED

ITS SILENTLY

RAGING IN ME

TO A POINT

I WANT TO BURST

THEN I GO

BUT REMEMBER

YOU ARE

A BEAST

NO ONE STAYS

LONG

THEY ENJOY YOU

AND CARRY ON

THINKING ALWAYS

THAT YOU

ARE TOO DISTANT

TOO INDEPENDENT

TOO ALOOF TO NOTICE

ITS BEEN

TOO LONG WITHOUT

LOVE BEAST

IS CRYING OUT

AND

SO DENIED

HOW HARD IS IT

TO SEE THAT

FACTOR

BEAST

JUST GO

JUST LEAVE ME

HERE

SO

I CAN FINALLY

ACCEPT THIS