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Poetry and Writings

HEART ISN'T MINE


HEART ISN’T MINE

S.JENSEN © 2017

TO THE LITTLE BIRDIE

SINGING OUT

MY WINDOW

CARRY THIS

MESSAGE OUT

TO WHERE

IT BELONGS…

CARRY OUT

THIS TO

MY ORION’S

RINGS...

WHEN DREAMS

MEET US IN THE

MIDDLE

AND ALL THE

DESIRES OF

THOSE NEEDED

MOMENTS

ARE FADED LIKE

THE WALL ART

HANGING TAPESTRY

TATTERED AND TORN

YET STILL FUNCTIONING

WHERE DO

WE SIT

IN THE STORM

CAUSE

WHERE I AM

IS NOT WHERE

I WISH

YET I DEAL

WITH IT

AS THERE IS

NOTHING ELSE

THAT CAN BE

OH TO MY

METAPHORS

OF JUMBLED EMOTIONS

WHEN

LOVE

SO STUNG

AND STILL

STINGS

IF YOU THINK

ON IT

SO I DON’T THINK ON IT

OH TO MY

DEAR

THE THINGS

THAT GET IN THE WAY

AND TURN

ONE TO THE

SOUR GRAPE CANDY

BUT OH

WHAT A TASTE

SO I TURNED

TO PEPPERMINT

AND NEVER

SEEMED TO LEAVE

THAT THOUGHT

JUST TIME

CAN TAKE AWAY

FROM YOU

THE THINGS

THAT MAKE YOUR

HEART BEAT

IF YOU LET IT

SO I DON’T

LET IT

ITS THAT SMOOTH

SPACE TO

REST MY HEAD

IN THE COMFORT

TO BE CARRIED

INTO A DREAM

THAT WAS SO SO

REAL TO ME

NOT SURE

HOW IT WAS

ON THE OTHERSIDE

IT WAS ALL

FREE AND GIVEN

AND NEVER

EVER A STRING

YET

THE DESIRES

ARE ALL WASTED

ON THE SANDS

AND THE HEART

STILL SITS

WAITING

IN THAT

WONDERFUL

FOOLISH WAY

OH TO THOSE

THAT LOVE ME

AND I DON’T AND

CAN’T LOVE THEM BACK

ITS NOT THEIR FAULT

ITS CAUSE

SOMETHING IN ME

IS SO STIRRING

IN A DIRECTION

THAT MAKES

NO FREAKING SENSE

ANYMORE

OPPORTUNITIES

ARE ALL AROUND

AND THE BIT

SO SIMPLE TO TAKE

AND

ALL DIRECTIONS

ARE NOT WHERE I

WANT TO GO

NONE OF THEM

COMPARE TO

THE THOUGHTS

AND MEMORIES

AND DREAMS

OF THAT

WHICH REALLY

ISN’T

BUT SO COULD

HAVE BEEN

BUT CIRCUMSTANCES

ALWAYS

SEEM TO STAND

IN THE WAY

WHERE MY HEART

STANDS

COMPARED TO

THE MEASURES

OF WHAT IS AND

WHAT ISN’T

HOW CAN YOU

TELL YOUR HEART

TO LET GO

WHEN EVERYTHING

ELSE HAS DONE SO

LONG LONG AGO

BUT

THERE IS THAT

NAGGING THING

INSIDE

THAT SAYS

ITS CAUSE YOU DON’T

LOVE THESE

OPPORTUNITIES

THAT PRESENT THEMSELVES

THEY ARE ALL

BROKEN PIECES

AND YOU JUST DON’T

WANT TO BE

THE PUZZLE PIECE

TO PUT THEM

IN THEIR PLACE

YOU WANT

SOMETHING DIFFERENT

AWAY FROM ALL

THE BROKEN

AND JADED

AND TORN THINGS

SOMETHING NEW

AND SOMETHING

WONDERFUL

AND CHALLENGING

AND CARING

AND IS IT STILL

THERE

IS THERE STILL

SOMETHING TO GRASP

BEFORE THAT

NAIL SAILS ITS COURSE

RUN AND RUN

AWAY

DOWN

THE HILL

LONG LONG AGO

AND YOU JUST

HOLD ON TO

WHAT

TO WHAT

OH TO WHAT

DO I HOLD TO

FAR FAR AWAY

MY LIL BIRDIE

TWO THAT WALK

ALWAYS IN THEIR

WAY

AND

NOTHING WRONG

WITH THAT

TELL MY HEART

TO KEEP GOING

ON

AND

ON

IN SOME KIND

OF DREAM

THAT

IS SO SO LONG

LOST

ON THE SWEETNESS

OF A MOMENT

THAT WAS

AND YET WASN’T

THE IN BETWEEN

TRUTHS TO LIES

AND THE WONDERFUL

TRAVELING

THAT WENT WITH

THAT DREAM

DIDN’T WANT

TO WAKE UP

NEVER WANTED

TO WAKE UP

AND

PULSE BEATS SO

FAST NOW

AND ONLY

WHAT WILL SLOW

IT DOWN

IS LIKE A BLANKET

AROUND MY

BODY

YET ITS

NOT HAPPY

WITH WHAT OPPORTUNITIES

THAT COME

UP TO ME

OH THE CHOICES

THAT ARE THROWN

AT MY FEET

ARE NEVER EVER

GONNA MATCH

AND I KNOW THAT

WHERE DID IT GO

WHERE DID I GO

HOW DID I WALK

OUT AND NOT COME BACK

WHILE STILL

SITTING HERE

AND ALL I SAW

AND ALL I FELT

AND ALL I AM

HOW DO YOU JUST

SAY OK

MIND YOU KNOW

ITS NOT GONNA

EVER BE

OK HEART YOU

KNOW ITS

NOT EVER GONNA

BE

OK SOUL YOU

KNOW WHERE YOU ARE

AND WHO YOU ARE

AND WHERE YOU WANT

TO BE

AND YET

SOUL YOU KNOW

WHERE YOU ARE

NOT EVER GONNA BE

HOW DO YOU RECOVER

FROM THIS

HEART

MIND

AND SOUL

ALL

MET SOULMATES

AND CAN’T CHANGE

THAT

ALL THESE HEARTS

RUNNING AROUND

SCREAMING

SAYING

COME ON

GIVE IN TO ME

AND YET

THIS HEART SAYS

NO I CAN’T

I DON’T WANT YOU

I DON’T NEED YOU

I DON’T LOVE YOU

THAT WAY

ANY MORE

THE ONES I DO

I CAN’T BE WITH

FOR WHATEVER

FREAKING MESSED UP

REASONING

SO I SIT HERE

AND SCREAM

TO THE AIR

WHY

WHY ME

WHY YOU CURSE

MY HEART

IN SUCH A WAY

WHY SHOW ME

AND WHY DESIRE

AND WHY PLAY THE

GAME

JUST TO TURN MY

MIND INTO

A MUSH OF EMOTIONS

WHICH

AQUARIANS

DON’T DO SO WELL WITH

TO BEGIN WITH

MY HEART ISN’T MINE

OH IT ISN’T MINE

ANYMORE

AND THAT IS

ALL YOUR FAULT

SO ALL YOUR FAULT

AND YOU KNOW IT

SO

SO

SO

JUST WALK AWAY

JUST GO AWAY

JUST LEAVE ME BE

IF THERE

IS NOTHING THERE

IF IT WAS ALL A LIE

TO SUIT YOUR

SELFISHNESS

OH ROUGE YOU

THIEF SO STOLE

MY HEART AWAY

OH ROUGE

YOU CARRIED IT

AWAY WITH

ONE WORD

ONE SYMBOL

ONE SET MOMENT

AND THAT

IS VERY

PRIVATE

IN A PUBLIC

WAY

SO I GO ON

CAUSE WHAT ELSE

CAN I DO

BUT NO ONE I SEE

NO ONE I KNOW

NO ONE I CARE FOR

SEEMS TO

EVEN GET CLOSE

MY HEART IS SO NOT MINE

IT NEVER WAS MINE

HOW DO YOU TELL IT

TO JUST LET IT BE

ITS NEVER GONNA BE

LET IT GO

JUST LET IT GO

TELL YOUR HEART

TO SETTLE

OH I SO HATE SETTLING

FOR WHAT IS HERE

WHEN NONE OF IT

HAS A REAL FUTURE

OH TO MY

IN’S AND OUT’S

OF THAT

FOUR LETTER WORD

THAT CURSES

MY SOUL SO

MY HEART WILL

NEVER EVER BE MINE

AND NOW

ITS EVEN WORSE

THAN BEFORE

CAUSE NO ONE

HERE SEEMS

TO EVEN COMPARE

YOU ARE GONE

AND LONG LEFT

AND IRONICALLY

I MISS YOU

I TELL MYSELF

I DON’T

THAT I DON’T CARE

THAT WHAT HAPPENED

WAS FOR THE BEST

BUT ITS SO

MESSED UP

THAT RAPTURE

OF THOUGHT

WOULD NEVER