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Poetry and Writings

PATCHWORK


PATCHWORK

S.JENSEN © 2017

SITTING HERE

CONFINED

BACK TO THIS

ONE THING

HOLDS TO MY

HEART

A WILL

OH I GUESS

I WILL NEVER

HAVE IN MY HEART

IN YOUR HEART

SO FAR

INTO THE

NOTHINGNESS

AND MOMENT

MOVE

FASTER

AS TIME IS

NEAR

THE WINTER’S EDGE

WHERE I SO

WISHED

AND ALWAYS

DENIED

WAS THERE

ANY LOVE

DID I REALLY LOVE

YOU

OR WAS IT

ALL A LIE

ALL A FALSEHOOD

MISCONCEPTION

FEEL SO BETRAYED

AND DON’T

THINK I AM THE

ONLY ONE

ON THAT

DID IT MEAN

ANYTHING

OH SO WRONG

THE HURT IS GONE

NOW

A PART OF ME

SAYS IT SITS

DEAD

AND DOOMED

ANOTHER SAYS

LET IT GO

YOU WILL BE

OK EVEN IF

ALONE SO

IS IT JUST MY SIN

FOR LOVING

REALLY THAT BAD

THAT I AM

FOREVER

SET IN THIS

AM I THE ONLY

ONE THAT

FEELS

DONE SO WRONG

I AM BEYOND

SORRY

FOR ALL

THAT HAPPENED

REALLY

WASNT HOW

I WANTED IT

TO END UP

I AM SORRY

FOR FALLING

IN LOVE

CAN’T SEEM

TO SHAKE IT OFF

NO MATTER

HOW HARD

I TRY

OH I AM JUST

A COMPLETE

FOOL

LOST

SO LOST

IN THIS

AM I JUST

IN LOVE

TO SOMEONE

I CAN NEVER

HAVE

OH HAVE I

LOST EVERYTHING

ONLY TIME

WILL TELL

IN ITS

NARROWING

I FELL

INTO THE TRAP

EASILY

AND YET

STILL SIT HERE

DID ANYTHING

HAVE MEANING

OH MY

HEART CRYS OUT

OH I AM THE

HOPELESS

ROMANTIC

IN THE SENSES

I FEEL IT WAS YOU

IT HAD TO BE YOU

SOME PART

HAD TO BE TRUE

MAYBE NOT ALL

OF IT BUT

MY HEART SAYS

I COULDN’T HAVE

BEEN IN THIS

ALONE

I FEEL SO UNWANTED

SO LEFT

I WORK ON

WAYS TO RECOVER

AND BE AT PEACE

ON IT ALL

YET I WONDER

AM I THE ONLY

ONE THAT

LOVED

IN THIS

OH IT BROUGHT

ME TO THE

POINT OF

BREAKING

DEEP TO THE CORE

LEFT HERE

AND NOT MUCH

I CAN DO ABOUT

ANY OF IT

NOW

WAS IT SO

WRONG TO

BELIEVE IN YOU

AND I

SO

WHY CAN’T

I SEEM

TO CHANGE

THAT PART

THAT LOVES

YOU

NEVER

ENOUGH

OH TO ACTUALLY

HAVE SOMEONE

IN MY ARMS

AGAIN

AND YET

SOMETIMES

I HATE THAT

THOUGHT

WAS I WRONG

TO THINK

WE EVER WERE

MY FRIEND

HAVE I EVEN

BEEN SUCH

COMPLETE

BUFFOON

IN ALL OF THIS

DID I MAKE

YOU FEEL

OBLIGATED

IN ANY WAY

OH MY PATCHWORK

HEART’S

DOOR

RESTS THERE

AS TIME

TAKES ME

FARTHER

AND FARTHER

INTO SOME

KIND OF

NUMB NOTHINGNESS

WITHOUT YOU

THE MISSING

OF IT

FRANKLY

DRIVES ME INSANE

SOMETIMES

THAT NEED

OF COMFORT

NOT THE REST

JUST TO HAVE

YOU SOMEHOW

IN MY LIFE

DON’T KNOW

WHY

I SO WISH

YOU COULD

CARRY ME

FROM THIS

MESS

OH TO THE

FADING

PARTS

IN THIS

WINTER’S SNOW

ARE WE

TO BE

SO ALONE

MY LOVE IN

THIS CHANGED

TO BE COOLED

AND FRIENDSHIP

DESIRED

YET THAT SEEMS

DENIED AS WELL

AND THE DAYS

JUST GET

MORE AND MORE

HARD TO

FIGURE OUT

WHAT AM I

GONNA DO

PAIN TAKES

BACK OVER

I AM STRONG WILLED

SORRY FOR THAT

I AM INDEPENDENT

SORRY FOR THAT

HECK I AM SORRY

FOR SO MUCH

I COULD SEEM

TO BE ABLE

TO REACH

THAT DESIRED SPOT

I STILL STRIVE

FORWARD

AND I AM STILL

INSPIRED

BY ALL YOU DO

THE AURAS

OF US

MY FRIEND

STILL AS THE

BRANCHES

AS THE SUN

SHINES IN

ACROSS MY FACE

TO WARM

IN THIS COLD

SPACE

QUIET OH

SO QUIET NOW

SO TIRED

AND SOMEHOW

I KEEP GOING

THINK ITS ONLY

CAUSE I CAN

SEE YOU GOING

TOO

MAY SEEM

SO WEIRD AND

DISTANCE

AND TWISTED

BUT ITS NOT

ITS THAT HUMAN

FEELING THING

THAT MY

SPOCK WAYS

HAVE SUCH A

HARD TIME WITH

EMOTIONS

AND WORDS

AND EVERYTHING

FRUSTRATES

SOMETIMES

LIKE LOOKING IN

THE FISH EYE LENS

OF THE CAMERA

FROM THE MIRROR

POINT OF VIEW

ETERNALLY

THERE

YET NOT THERE

ITS JUST

ME NOW

HERE

AND SOME DAYS

THAT IS SO

HARD TO SWALLOW

AND

MOVING ABOUT

JUST TAKES

HOURS TO

GAIN THE ENERGY

EFFORT TO

DO SO

SOME DAYS

I CAN MOVE

BY LEAPS AND

BOUNDS

AND ALL IS FINE

OTHERS

JUST

RESTS HERE

IN THE LIMBO

THING

KNOW I AM OK

DON’T KNOW

HOW NOT TO BE OK

YET ITS

SO LIKE

FORGIVE ME

MY MIND AND HOW

MY HEART WENT

THERE

IT SO WENT THERE

KNOW THAT

NOW PASS ALL

THE

MESS THAT

OCCURRED ON

BOTH SIDES OF THIS

THAT

I DON’T HOLD

YOU TO ANYTHING

JUST THOUGHT

FRIENDSHIP

COULD BE GAINED

AFTER IT ALL

KNOW I WILL

ALWAYS

LOVE YOU

THAT IS A FACT

CANT NOT LOVE YOU

IT IS WHAT

IT IS

GUESS A PART OF

ME WILL SIT

HERE AND

FOREVER

WISH I HAD JUST

ONE MOMENT

IN TIME

TO BE

REALLY THERE

TO KNOW

MORE OF

HOW YOU FELT

IN ALL OF THIS

FORGO

MY SELFISHNESS

WHICH REALLY

ISN’T ME

I AM SO NOT SELFISH

IN REALITY

WHAT POSSESSED

ME IN THAT OBSESSION

I DON’T RIGHTLY

GET IT

MAYBE ITS JUST

MY LACK OF

UNDERSTANDING

EMOTIONS

THERE IS A PRECIOUS

PATCH WORKED

INTO THE REST

OF MY HEART

WHERE YOU

REMAIN

AND IT COVERS

MOST OF IT

JUST SAYING

THANK YOU

WOULD NEVER

EVER BE

ENOUGH

COULD YOU

EVER COME

AND JUST

CHILL WITH

ME AWHILE

TO THIS THOUGHT

THAT I STILL

HAVE

DON’T BE

AFRAID

OF ME

I CAN ASSURE YOU

I WOULD BE

ON MY BEST

BEHAVIOR

AND NOT CROSS

THE LINES

I SO DID IN

THE BEGINNING

OH MAN DID

I GO LOCO

GUESS IT WAS THE

LACK OF NOT

HAVING ANYONE