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DARK BLUES


DARK BLUES

S.JENSEN (c)2019

SUN DOWN ON MY FACE

DRINKING THE WATER

WAITING ON BUS

KNOWING THINGS

HAVENT REALLY CHANGED

NOR DO I

THINK THEY WILL

NOW

LEARNING TO

ACCEPT

THE WAY THINGS

ARE

AND THIS FATE

OF MINE

...

HEAD STILL

POUNDING

BUT TODAY

MANTRAS

FOG THE NERVES

AN SO

ITS SOMEWHAT

TOLERABLE

WITH THE

MED TEAS

...

LITTLE BLUES

FROM THE

MAGNESIUM

LOW

BUT BEING FIXED

...

STAYING IN A CALM

SPACE

ALLOWING

THE SILENCE

TO FALL INTO

PLACE

THIS LOSS

IS ONLY FROM

THIS SIDE OF THINGS

LAST TO BE

LAST TO KNOW

AND LET IT GO

...

ITS WHAT

THEY WANT

ANYHOW

NOT HOW I FEEL

BUT HOW

I HAVE TO DEAL

CAUSE ITS

WHAT IS WANTED...

ONE DAY

MAYBE THE

SITUATIONS WILL

BE DIFFERENT

YET I DOUBT

THE SOULMATE

MY KINDRED

SOUL

WILL COME

BACK AROUND

IN THIS LIFETIME

FEELING

KINDA LIKE OLD

WEATHERED

TORN LEATHER

PATCHED TOGETHER

NOT BRITTLE

TO THE POINT

DONE

BUT THE

BLACK DYE

IS WORN AWAY

SHOWING

THE EDGES

AND NATURAL

COLOURS

UNDERNEATH

FOR ALL TO SEE

RESTITCHED

AND DESIGNS COVER

THE GAPING HOLES

THAT CAN’T

BE REPLACED

GIFTED TO ME

IN THAT STATE

OF FRACTUREDNESS

OWNED FOR

30 YEARS

I LOVE IT JUST

AS IT IS

I DONT WEAR IT

I JUST ADMIRE IT

SEEMS

SO HOW I FEEL

AS OF LATELY

ALSO GIFTED TO ME

A SMALL

DENIM JACKET

STILL PERFECT

SLIGHTLY WORN VIEW

INSIDE IT

IN SHARPIE

THE WORDS

I LOVE YOU

JUST AS CHERISHED

AND NOT

SO BEATEN

BLACK AND BLUE

THE COLOURS

OF A HEART

LONG LONG GONE

AWAY

MEMORIES

I HOLD

UNREQUITED

IN BOTH SPOTS

MOMENTS IN TIME

WHERE THINGS

WERE SIMPLY

AS THEY ARE

AS WITH THINGS

NOTHING STAYS

THE SAME

BUT THOSE MEMORIES

...

MED TEA

SOOTHS THE PAIN

AWAY

NUMBING THE

HURT

OF PHYSICAL

ACHES

IN THIS AGING BODY

YET

THE HEART INSIDE

IS NOT QUITE

AS WORN

I WOULD SAY

ITS WEATHERD

BUT MORE LIKE

ADDED LAYERS

OF METAL

COVER ITS SHELL

HOLDING IT TIGHT

KNOWING

THOSE

DAYS ARE LONG

GONE

AND NO ONE

KNOWS THE

DAYS TO COME

FOR NOTHING

IS GUARANTEED

WE MAKE DO

AS BEST AS WE CAN

UNDER CIRCUMSTANCES

THE DIAMONDS

OF MY HEART

HOLD THREE FIRES

ONE IS DIM

ONE IS OUT

ONE IS

IN LIMBO

STILL

AND REMAINS THERE

VIRGO TO ONE

CAPRICORN TO ANOTHER

AND THAT

CANCER

OH THAT CANCER

WORSE ON MY

HEART OF ALL

MY CHILD REMINDS

ME OF THAT DAY

ALL THE TIME

THAT MEMORY

I CAN’T FORGET

NOR DO I WANT TO

SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL

ABOUT THAT

ONE MOMENT IN TIME

NONE HELD MY

HEART FOR LONG

NONE CHERISHED IT

TO KEEP IT

NONE WISHED

TO BE MY

KNIGHT

FOR I SAVED MYSELF

WITH EACH

AND HELPED THEM

ALONG

THE WAY

LIKE THE DRAGON

THAT GOT AWAY

THIS LIL MONKEY

HAS NO ONE

STILL

MEN JUST

FIZZLE AWAY

WOMEN

ARE SO

INTENSE

AND JUST

FADE IN THE

WIND

THOUGH I MUST

SAY THREE OF THEM

HURT ME THE MOST

AND TRIED TO TAKE

MY LIFE AWAY

ONE IS STILL

JUST A DREAM

A DREAM

MIXED IN A LOST

WORLD

THAT DONT

REALLY EXIST

BUT I MADE IT

CREATED IT

IN MY HEAD

THIS LIL INFJ

TRIED TO

BE MORE THAN

SHE WAS ALLOWED

OF THEM ALL

SHE IS THE ONLY

ONE THAT TEARS

STILL FORM

DAMN

YET WE ALL

CARRY ON

AS WE HAVE TO

AND I DON’T

REALLY KNOW HER

AS CLOSE

AS THE OTHERS

SO WHY

THE TEARS FORM

MAYBE JUST

MAYBE ITS

THAT WE NEVER

GOT TO BE

THAT IS WHAT DOES IT

THE VERDICT IS OUT

DID ANY REALLY

TRULY CONNECT

WITH ME

DID I REALLY

LOVE ALONE

IN HALF OF THEM

PROBABLY

SO NOW

I AM IN THAT

MAJOR LIMBO

SPOT

CARRYING MY

LIL DARK BLUES

AROUND WITH ME

OH THE BLUES

THIS SOUTHERN SOUL

CAN’T ESCAPE

HER ROOTS

WE TEND

TO CARRY TRAGEDY

LIKE A GLOVE

AND SING IT OUT

LIKE A HORN

ITS THAT DANCING BEAT

THAT SADNESS

WE KNOW

SO WELL

AND NEVER SKIPS

A BEAT

THAT GOOD OLE

NEW ORLEANS

FLAIR

YEAH ITS

IN GRAINED

MY DIXIE LAND

COASTAL HOME

NO LONGER

YET IN MY

HEART LIKE EVERYTHING

REMAINS...

ALL MY SILVER

CIRCLES FLOATING

AROUND MY

DARK BLUES

THE AIR MOLECULES

THAT DOUBLE

AS EYES ALL SEEING

OMNIPOTENT

ADONI

YEAH

THAT FLOWS A TAD

IN ALL OF US

BEINGS

HERE FOR WE

ARE CREATED

FROM THAT THOUGHT

ENERGY

MY TRIPLE WATERS

FLOW FROM THE JUG

OUT MY PERSONALITY

OUT MY EMOTIONS

AND OUT MY MENTALITY

HARD TO ESCAPE

THAT

NOR DO I WANT TO

IT IS SO WHO I AM

WHO I LOVE TO BE

AND WHERE

I AM ALWAYS GONNA BE

ONE IN SPIRITUAL

UNION TO

THE UNIVERSE

BEYOND THE NORM

THAT IS WHERE

I GO

WHERE I ESCAPE TO

WHERE I FIND

THE GROUNDING

EDGES

OF THE CRAZY WORLD

AND LEAVE

IT BEHIND

FOR A LIL WHILE

TIME STILL

FLOWS THE SANDS

ONE GRAIN AT A TIME

AND BACK

TO THIS EARTHLY

SPHERE

I REMAIN

FOR A TIME LONGER

SUFFERING

HAS NOT ENDED YET

THE FIGHT IS NOT

OVER YET

AND I REFUSE

TO CUT IT SHORTER

JUST SIMPLY REFUSE

THAT SO PAIN BECOMES

MY CLOSEST FRIEND

SIGH

AND FIND RELIEF WHERE

I CAN

TO MAKE IT GO AWAY

TIL IT RETURNS

AGAIN

THESE BOUNDARIES

WE ALL

SET

FOUNDATIONS

IN STONE

OR IN SAND

ON SOLID GROUND

OR SHALLOW

WATERS

IN TIME

ERODES AWAY

AND WE

ALL NEED

TO FIND THAT

STABILITY

ONE WAY OR ANOTHER

MY REFLECTING DOTS

IN EPIC LINES

GLOWING AND