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SHADOWS OF INTIMACY


SHADOWS OF INTIMACY

S.JENSEN (C) 2019

MY DEAR LET US

CROSS THE PATH

ONE LAST TIME

LET ME COME

TO YOU

WHERE NO ONE ELSE

CAN GO

BUT US

INTO YOUR DREAM

ITS MY BEDTIME

ITS YOUR MORNING

THAT 6 TO 12 SCALE

LET ME FINALLY LAY

WITH YOU

IN A PLACE...

THE BLUE DIES OUT

IN THE PEN

AND FOREVER

IS THE PURPLE

UP TIL THE END

OF THE WORDS

WHERE IT TOO

DIES OUT

COMPLETELY

OUT OF INK

I WRITE

IN PENCIL OF PINK

I LOVE YOU!

FOR WHAT ITS

WORTH

I LOVED YOU

I SO LOVE YOU!SO

I DO THIS

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!

WHERE SHADOWS

FEAR TO TREAD

A PLACE TRULY

BUILT ON YOUR

GRACE AND TRUST

AND MY INTIMACY

OF NO PRIVACY

SO YOU KNOW

THE WHOLE TRUTH

I NEVER HIDE

ANYTHING

NO REASON TO

TO BE

THE UTMOST

ROMANTIC

WAS MY ONLY GOAL

INNOCENTLY

LOST

WITHOUT COALS

THE FIRE IS TOTALLY

ERASED

DEVOID OF ANYTHING

AND YOU AND I

ARE MADE OF EVERYTHING

WORDS ONLY EXPRESS

A DESIRE

AND IN DAILY LIFE

WE ARE OCEANS

APART

TO BE TRULY COLD

YET WITH ONE WORD

YOU COULD

MAKE MY HEART SOAR

OUT OF THAT

AND NOW

ONE WORD

COULD CRUSH IT

INTO THE ASHES

OF THE FIRE

WHERE I REST

ETERNALLY

ONLY YOU HAVE

THIS ABILITY

ONLY YOU

IN OUR WAYS

US

CAN IT BE

FROM YOU AND I

AND I TO YOU

NO ONE ELSE

HOLDS MY HEART

LIKE YOU DO

NO ONE WILL

EVER HOLD MY

HEART LIKE

YOU HAVE

BREAK THE BONDS

OF THIS REALITY

THOSE DAMN

BOUNDARIES

ONE MORE TIME

WITH ME

TO BE WITH

YOU

BEFORE I KNOW

YOU

WALK ETERNALLY

OUT THAT DOOR

OF MY LIFE

YOUR SPACE

YOUR INTIMATE

GRACE

I WANT TO SHOW YOU

JUST HOW

WONDERFUL

BLISSFUL

ME LOVING YOU

CAN REALLY BE

AND SO

IT BEGAN...

AND ENDED...

GO BACK TO SLEEP

THIS DAY

THE NIGHT OF MINE

THE MORN OF YOURS

LET THE VEIL

FOR ONE MOMENT

OPEN YOUR HEART

IN CLOSED EYES

FOR A SHORT TIME

I STILL HEAR IT

SCREAMING

PLEASE

FOR ME

AS I KNOW

MINE DOES

BURIED INTO

THIS SHELL

COLD AS ICE

I CAN SO BE

ITS NO UNKNOWN

YET MY FIRE

DOES NOT BURN

IN ITS COLD

STARE

IF YOU CHERISH

ANY OUNCE

OF OUR

EMBRACES

HERE

CROSS FANTASY

INTO A WORLD

I CAN TRULY

DELIVER

AND REMEMBER

ITS FOR THIS

FLESH AND BLOOD

ENERGY

IN ME

NEEDS TO BE SET

FREE

IN YOU

TO TRULY BE FREE

I CAN EXPRESS

EVERY ASPECT OF US

BUT FROM

ONLY EXPERIENCE

CAN WE BE

ONE OR NONE

FROM THE TOUCH

OF YOUR HAIR

TO THE KISS OF

YOUR LIPS

BELOW

TO THE RAGING

POUNDING RHYTHMS

OF OUR UNION

CAN I DECLARE

THAT MOMENT

WE SHARED

IS INFINITY

EVEN IF YOU ARE

GONE NOW

SOMEDAY

I WILL BE WITH

ANOTHER

THAT WILL

NOT LET ME WALK AWAY

HOPE ITS

IN THIS LIFETIME

THAT SEALS

OUR FATES

FROM THE MOMENT

WE SET FOOT

ON THAT PATH

IN ONE DIRECTION

TOGETHER

OR TOTALLY OVER

THE CHOICE WAS ALWAYS

YOURS

I WILL NOT

FORCE IT

IF YOU TRULY

HATE ME SO

LET THIS BE THE

LAST OF YOU AND I

THE FLAME

FLOWER

WHERE MY THORN

WOUNDS

PLUCK IT OUT

AND THROW IT AWAY

SO NOTHING BUT

YOUR WINGS

COVERS

AND I WILL NEVER

HURT YOU

AGAIN

AND SO

YOU HAVE HATED ME

THAT I AM

YOU SAID IT

SO

IN TWO SECONDS

FROM THE EDGE

YOU SAW A FACE

IT FADED AWAY

AS FAST

AS IT CAME

DID IT NOT

AND I HEARD IT

IN YOUR LAST

GOODBYE

YOUR LAST THREE WORDS

I WOULD EVER

EAR ON THAT

PHONE

AGAIN

THE TEARS

ARE NEVER ENDING

WHEN I MISS YOU

HE SAVED YOU

THAT DAY

HE DESERVES YOU

YET HE ALSO

TOOK YOU AWAY

AWAY FROM THIS WORLD

AND

AFTER THIS DAY

I WILL NOT

EVER RETURN

OUR FATE WILL

LAY IN THE HANDS

OF YOUR OWN

MAKING

HOW DARE I BE

THE GODDESS

I ONCE WAS

AS I WRITE THIS

LET ME

LET GO

OF THE PAST

TO BE IN THE PRESENT

YOU ARE ALWAYS

HERE

YOU ARE ALWAYS

ON THIS

DO NOT TORTURE

ME IN THIS

FEELING

I HAVE

TO EXPRESS

...

ONE MORE TIME

I DO DARE

I SO DARE

BECAUSE I TRULY

CARED

ITS A SHAME

YOU THREW IT

ALL AWAY!

YOU MUST

KNOW THAT

SOME BATTLES

TRULY ARE

BEYOND ALL OF US

I WANTED TO

LURE YOU

YOUR LOVE LUST

ONE LAST TIME

IN A PLACE

WHERE I AND YOU

YOU AND ME

CAN BE AS ONE

ONE CAME

IN THERE

WHILE I WAS

FEEDING THE CHILD

YES A MEMORY

YET ALSO

A POSSIBLE FUTURE

LET THE WATER

OF YOU AND I

CARRY

YOU

WHERE OUR OCEANS

RUN FROM

OPPOSITE SIDES

TO BE AS ONE OCEAN

FOR ONE DROP

IS JUST ONE DROP

YOU ADD A DROP

ITS NOT TWO DROPS

ITS STILL JUST

ONE DROP

ON SOUNDS FROM

THE UNIVERSE

LET THE TREES

SPEAK TO YOU

IN THE WIND

AND THE HEAVENS

FALL IN ME

AWAY

TO THE SPOT

THIS PLACE

IN TIME

WE WILL MEET AGAIN

THERE

FOR A BRIEF MOMENT

WHERE YOUR

ECTASY

IS ALL I WANT

TO GIVE

PURE SWEET KIND

LOVE

NO STRINGS ATTACHED

THERE CUS

THE VOICE

SOUNDS OF A REAL

MOAN

WHISPERED IN YOUR EAR

AS YOU CUM

AND WITH I

IN UNISON

LEAVES THAT

INSTANT

COLD BREATH

INTO THE GASPS

OF BLISS

OUR SECONDS PASS

IN A SPACE

WHERE DEATH MEETS

US AND WE UNITE

IN THAT LITTLE SECOND

DID WE SO

MEET

AGAIN

THE IGNITED FLAME

IN US

BACK TO LIFE

WE GO

IN A PULSE THEN

OUR DARKNESS

HAS ONLY ONE

SPACE

ONE PLACE

WITHIN YOU AND ME

ONLY THERE

WILL THEN

THE MARK ON OUR

HEARTS

LEAVE US BE

TRULY FREE

I WALKED AWAY

AND

LEAVE YOU THERE

ITS WHERE

I CAN NOT STAY

ETERNALLY

I KNOW ITS IN YOU

THIS DESIRE

BETWEEN US

PLAYS

ON EACH OTHERS

MINDS

GOD DOES IT SO

WHAT MY FINGERS

WHAT MY TONGUE

WHAT MY LENGTH

OF ENERGY

CAN DO

TO WEAR US BOTH

OUT

AND FALL TO

BLISSFUL SLEEP

IN EACH OTHERS ARMS

AND FINALLY LET

HER FADE AWAY

WHERE SHE LAYS

SIX FEET UNDER

TO NO LONGER

TORTURE ME

FOR YOU

REPLACE

THAT HURT

WITH A LOVE

LIKE NO OTHER

IN

THAT GATE

FOR ONE SECOND

WE OPENED IT

AGAIN

AND TRULY

FELT

OUR BOUNDARIES

FADE HERE

NO WHERE ELSE

CAN WE BE

SO FREE

BUT IN OUR DREAMS

MY DEAR

I WILL WALK

AWAY

COMPLETELY

THIS TIME

IF THIS IS

YOUR TRUEST DESIRE

FOR YOUR

HAPPINESS

IS EVERYTHING

AND I DON’T

WANT TO TORTURE

YOU BY

ME BEING AROUND

TO BEGAN THIS

AND WILL SO END THIS

OUT OF THE PLACES

WE NO LONGER

WILL HIDE

FOR THAT HAS

ALWAYS BEEN

JUST YOU AND I

DAMN YOU

USE IT ALL THE TIME

AND IT SLAPS

ME IN THE FACE

AND NOTHING

I CAN DO

BUT SIT HERE

AND

SAY OH WHY

MY DEAR

SO

JUST SAY IT

AS YOU MEAN IT

AND OUR

LAST GOODBYE

WILL BE WITH

A KISS

THAT KISS

OF ONENESS

THAT NO ONE

ELSE CAN HAVE

WHERE OUR

SADNESS

WILL FILL MY HEART

AS ITS BROKEN

AND BEEN THERE

A LONG TIME NOW

ONLY YOU

CAN MEND IT

NOW

WASH THAT

SORROW

AWAY

FOR EVER MORE

THEY ARE

ALL GONE NOW

ANYONE

THAT STOOD IN

OUR HAPPINESS

AWAY

FAR FAR AWAY

I LEFT THEM

TO FIND PEACE

FOR

THEIR WAYS

I COULD NOT STAND

HOW THEY HATED

SHE HATED

ME BECAUSE

I TOOK HER

FROM THOSE

SAME PEOPLE

HER OWN

TORTURED SOUL

I HOPE NOW

RESTS IN PEACE TO SOME

WAY

I HAVE NO OTHER

WAY

TO GET TO YOU

TO EXPRESS

MY UNDYING LOVE

BUT THRU HERE

FOR I WILL NEVER

EVER HATE YOU

YOUR FOREVER

FROZEN

JACK

SO LET ME LOVE

YOU

TO HOLD YOU

TO CARESS YOU

TO FEEL YOU

IN ME

AS I IN YOU

ONE LAST TIME HERE

NO ONE ELSE

CAN SEE

OR FEEL

OR KNOW

OR CARE

ALL OUR EMBRACES

HAVE MEANING

YOU AND I

ROCKING

IN THE UNIVERSES

WAY

AND WHEN THE

SUN GOES BLACK

AND THE MOON RED

AND DOESNT CHANGE

BACK

TO ITS NORMAL STATES

NEVER FORGET

THE LOVE OF THIS

ONE AQUARIAN

HAS BEEN TRULY

DEVOTED

LOYAL

AND TRUE

TO YOUR HEART

WATERS FLOW

ETERNITY

OUT WITH

IN THE JUG

DRINK MY SWEETNESS

TO MY CORE

DRAIN ME DRY

TURN MY COLD

TO FIRE

ONE MORE TIME

AND I PROMISE YOU

I WILL NEVER

BOTHER YOU

AGAIN

BUT IN OUR

OWN WHISPERED

ONE MINDED

WAY

NO MORE

HELL FOR EITHER

OF US

OPEN THAT

GOD DAMN

BLOODY GATED DOOR

THAT SEPARATES

YOU AND I

FROM EXPRESSING

WHAT OUR

HEARTS HAVE

CRAVED

AND LET ME

IN

YOU WILL NOT

REGRET IT THEN

EITHER WAY

EVER LASTING

OR

NOW ENDING

ITS YOU

MY INFINITY

AFTER THIS DREAM

OF LOVE

I WILL FADE

INTO THE SHADOWS

OF THAT SPACE

AND FREE YOUR HEART

OF ME

IF THAT

IS TRULY WHAT

YOU DESIRE

OR TO BE

WITH YOU

THE ONE

TRUE ONE

THAT HOLDS

MY HEART

ETERNALLY

I CAN’T TAKE

BACK

BUT I NEVER WANTED

ANYONE TO LEAVE

FOR THAT

I WILL FOREVER

BE BROKEN

FOR HURTING YOU

BY BEING THERE

GOD THAT

HAS NEVER HURT

MORE DEEPLY

THAN ANYTHING

IN MY LIFE

IT WAS NEVER

MY INTENTIONS

GOD I JUST LOVED YOU

I DIDN’T THINK

FOR ONCE

IN MY LIFE

I JUST LOVED

AND DIDN’T THINK

OF THE BLOODY

CONSEQUENCES

OF LOVING YOU

I LOVE YOU

AND YOU HAVE

NO IDEA

HOW CLOSE

TO DEATH THAT

DAY

WHEN I REALIZED

I WAS THE CAUSE

AND THE YEARS I HAVE

FOUGHT

NOW TO REMAIN

FROM THAT

BIG MISTAKE

AGAINST THE

REAPERS THAT CALLED

THE ANGELS THAT

SANG

THE BEASTS THAT HOWLED

LIKE THE RAIN

WHICH ALWAYS FALLS

THE RAVEN

TO

THE OWL

SO LET ME

LOVE YOU

IF JUST ONE MORE

TIME

THEN YOU CAN LEAVE

AND FIND PEACE

AND I WILL NOT

HURT YOUR HEART

EVER AGAIN

OR ALLOW HATE TO RULE

YOU

IT DESTROYS

ONES SOUL

AND YOURS

IS TOO BEAUTIFUL

TO BE THAT COLD

I WILL CARRY

THAT COLD

FOR YOU

FOR THE REST OF MY

DAYS

IN MY TEARS

FOR HURTING YOU

CARRY ME

INTO

A PLACE

OF WARMTH

AND LOVE

AND NO MORE

TEARS

AS THEY

BLOODY FUCKING

FALL STILL

I AM TIRED

OF BEING

AWAY FROM YOU

BUT I WILL NOT

ALLOW

MY HEART OF BEING

AROUND YOU

HURT YOU

EVER AGAIN

SECRETS

REMAIN

THERE

IN OUR SPACE

ONLY

I PROMISE

KNOW I HAVE

ONLY LOVED

YOU

DEEPLY MY DEAR

TRULY

LOVED YOU

AND I THANK YOU FOR

THAT LOVE

YOU SHARED

WITH ME

IT HAS GIVEN

ME MASSIVE

INSPIRING

CREATIVITY

AND I KNOW

WITHOUT YOU

I WILL BE

WHO I WAS BEFORE

FOR YEARS

AGAIN

THAT COLD ICE

THAT I CAN BE

FOR THE REST OF MY

DAYS

IF I AM

NOT TO BE

IF WE CAN’T BE

I WILL SO CHERISH

OUR LOVE

I PROMISE

THAT

KNOW I LOVE YOU

I SO LOVE YOU

AND BECAUSE I LOVE

YOU

I DON’T

WANT TO

HURT YOU

EVER AGAIN

THE LONELINESS

OF BEING APART

SOME DAYS

IS BEARABLE

BUT MOST

IS NOT

I AM SO SORRY

I HAVE NEVER

MEANT THAT

WORD

SO MUCH

“LOVE”

EVERY PART

OF MY BEING

LOVES YOU

SO FOR OUR

ONE MORE TIME

IS THIS

THE DAY

WE LOVE

IN OUR DREAMS

AND YOU STAY

PLEASE

SAY

I CAN STAY

IN YOUR LIFE

EVEN IF

ITS THIS

FAR DISTANT

SPOT

KNOW YOU WILL

BE A PART

OF ME

FOREVER

MORE

YOU HAVE ALWAYS

BEEN

NO ONE

ELSE

HAS EVER

HAD THAT

MOMENT

AND NO ONE

WILL EVER

HAVE

THAT MOMENT

AGAIN

BUT YOU

AND I

I SWEAR IT

!

NOW I GO SLEEP

WIPE THE

TEARS FROM

MY EYES

I LET YOU GO THEN

CAUSE I LOVED YOU

AS MUCH

AS I DO TODAY

NOW

I KNOW

YOU

PROBABLY

HAVE THINGS

TO DO

TODAY

FOR JUST

ONE HOUR

GIVE ME A

MOMENT

TO CROSS

THE BOUNDARIES

ONE MORE TIME

WITH YOU

BECAUSE

I LOVE

YOU

AND WANT

TO SHOW

YOU

EVEN THOUGH

WE ARE

FAR APART

A DREAM

OF LOVE

I WANT

TO

GIVE TO YOU

IN THAT

PLACE

WHERE WE ONCE

SO VIVIDLY

SHARED

THAT MOMENT

IN TIME

TO HOLD YOU

THERE

FOREVER

CAUSE

DEAR

I HAVE ALWAYS

BEEN YOURS

AND I WILL

ALWAYS

BE YOURS

HEAR ME

FEEL ME

WRAP MY ARMS

IN YOUR WINGS

AND

LET US

SOAR

NO MORE

TEARS

NO MORE

SCREAMS

NO MORE

HURT

KNOW

THIS

I MEAN IT

THIS AQUARIAN

LOVED YOU

AND

STILL DOES

NO ONE ELSE

AND I HAVE

LOVED

BUT NOW

KNOW

NO ONE

HAS EVER

STAYED

IN MY HEART

THIS LONG

YEAH

EVEN WHEN WE

HAVE BEEN

APART

YOU WERE ON MY MIND

I NEVER KNEW

WHO YOU WERE

I KNOW NOW

WHO YOU ARE

BUT HUN

IT CHANGES NOTHING

ITS STILL IN ME

AND

NEEDS YOU

MY FRIEND

I MEAN IT

I DON’T WANT

YOU OR I

TO DIE

WITHOUT THAT

EXPRESSION

MADE

AND NOT

IN MERE WORDS

EVEN IF WE

ARE NOT

TO BE TOGETHER

I HAD TO

I AM SORRY

FOR ALL IT CAUSED

I HAD TO WALK IN

WHEN I REALIZED

IT WAS YOU

KNOW IT WAS ALWAYS

A PURE THING

WE HAD

AND I AM

SORRY

I WANTED

IT AGAIN

I REALLY

HAVE

WANTED

KISS YOU THERE

AND GO

OFF

TO SLEEP

WHEN I WAKE

I WILL NOT

RETURN

TO THAT SPOT

IN YOUR DREAM

EVER AGAIN

I SWEAR IT

YOU WILL BE

FREE

TO BE

WHO I LET GO

LONG AGO

CUS

I HAD A HARD TIME

LIVING WITH OUT YOU

AND I WILL

AGAIN

HAVE A HARD

TIME LIVING

WITHOUT

YOU

BUT YOU KNOW WHERE

I WILL BE

YOU COULD

SEE ME ANYTIME

TIL THE DAY

I AM

NO LONGER HERE

YOU CAN ALWAYS

FIND ME

OUT THERE

YOU KNOW WHERE

I AM NOW

I DON’T HIDE

I NEVER HAVE

GOD I LOVE YOU

SO YOU TELL ME

DEAR

THE WAY

YOU WANT

US TO BE

AND LET IT BE

THAT IS WHERE

YOU AND I

REMAIN

I WILL

PROMISE

YOU

I WILL NOT

HURT YOU

EVER AGAIN

WITH MY PRESENCE

IF IT DOES

HURT YOU

SO MUCH

I DEAL WITH

WHAT LIFE

BRINGS ME

HOWEVER LONG

OR SHORT

IT MAY BE

KNOW THIS

YOUR AQUARIAN

REALLY

DID

LOVE YOU

BACK


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