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RUSTLING LEAVES

ON THE TREES

IN THE SILENT

WHISPERS OF

HOW THINGS

ARE SO LEFT

OUT IN CAUSING

MORE HURT

THAN MEANT

TO BE

HEALING ONESELF

FROM THEM

IS A GOOD THING

AND NEVER

A BAD THING

NOW HOW

SOMEONE ELSE

REACTS TO

THOSE TRUTHS

IS NOT FOR

ME TO SAY

SADDENS THAT

ITS GONE THIS

WAY

PAST IS PAST

AND THOSE

HURTS

ARE DEEP

ON ALL SIDES

SOMETIMES

THE SCARS

LEFT GO TOO

DEEP TO

EVER

BRING ANY

PEACE TO

THE SITUATION

THAT JUST

MADE THINGS

ENTIRELY WORSE

THAN BETTER

NOTHING

ONE CAN DO

BUT MOVE

FORWARD

FROM IT

AND TRY TO GATHER

SOME

PEACE FROM

THE FALLOUT

OF WHICH

WAS NOT EVEN

DESERVED

LESSON LEARNED

ON MY PART

SO SIGH

I GO ON

FROM ALL ANGLES

NOW

LIKE THE STILLNESS

OF THE HUMID

SUMMER

DAYS

ONES POINT OF VIEW

TO THE OTHER

IS LONG

BEEN SAID AND DONE

SIGH

LIKE THE ARTISTS

PAINTSTICK

THAT DRIES

OR THE FLOWER

THAT FADES

AND WILTS

THE CYCLES

REACH A POINT

OF CHANGING

DIRECTIONS

THAT IS ALL I CAN DO

WRONG OR NOT

I WILL NOT

GO BACK

NOW

DAMN

THE HURT IS

CAST OUT

LIKE A MAJOR

FACTOR

ONE HURT

RETURNS

HOW I SAW IT

SO DIFFERENTLY

I GUESS IN HER

EYES I WILL

ALWAYS

BE THE WRONG ONE

DAMN WRONG

SHE TURNED

A INNOCENT

LOVELY

CHANCE

INTO HELL

INTO AN ENEMY

I CAN’T CHANGE

THAT

VIEW

IT IS MY FAULT

FOR FALLING

WHERE THERE WAS

ONLY MY HEART

IF I AM TO BLAME

FOR ANYTHING

ITS FOR

LOVING

SOMEONE

I THOUGHT

FELT THE SAME

BUT

THAT APPARENTLY

I WAS WRONG

AND GUESS

I AM NOT FORGIVEN

NOW

I WILL NOT

EVER SEE THINGS

THE SAME

NOW

I LOOKED UP TO HER

I WAS INSPIRED BY HER

I WAS HELPED TO

HEAL MYSELF BY HER

AND SHE

HATES ME FOR IT

DAMN

JUST DAMN

THATS GONNA TAKE

AWHILE

TO HEAL FROM

ON ANOTHER

LEVEL

COMPLETELY

NOT WHAT I WAS EXPECTING

STACY IS GONE

AND I WILL NOT

LET HER HURT ME

EVER AGAIN

EVEN IF SHE IS GONE

AND NOR

SHALL I LET

ANYONE ELSE HURT ME

EVER AGAIN

NOW

THOUGH I AM CRYING

SO IT CLEARLY

HAS

BEEN HER

OH MY AM I HURT

I WAS HEALING

I HAVE TO

GO CRY THIS OUT

AND GET THROUGH

THIS

AND I WILL

NOT EVER LOOK AT ANY

OF THEM THE

SAME

NOW

I HAVE TO DECIDE

TO COMPLETELY

WALK AWAY

FOREVER

SHE WAS THE ONLY

THING KEEPING

ME TOGETHER

THROUGH IT ALL

AND I SEE

TO HER

I AM COMPLETELY

THE OPPOSITE

OH DAMN

YEAH HURT

GOES BOTH WAYS

AND VERY

DEEP NOW

SHIT

THAT IS NOT

WHAT I THOUGHT

SHE WAS TO ME

FUCKING AYE

I GO GRIEVE OVER

OVER THOSE

REMARKS

DAMN

JUST FUCKING DAMN

I HAVE SOME THINKING

TO DO

WITHOUT

ACTING OUT OF

HURT

ALL THE MUSIC

HAS BEEN SAVING ME

GIVING ME

STRENGTH

NOW I AM LIKE

WHAT ?

OK NOW

I GO CRY MY EYES OUT

THAT IS ALL I CAN

DO RIGHT NOW

AND TRY

TO KEEP MY HEAD

ON STRAIGHT

I WILL BE OK

I PROMISE

JUST GOT

TO GO THROUGH

THIS NOW

AND HOPE MY

HEART HEALS

THAT JUST

DOUBLE WHAMED ME

I MADE A DAMN

MISTAKE FOR

EVER TRYING

TO GO THERE

AND BE A FRIEND

AND TELL HER

WHAT HAPPENED

TO ME

THE BIGGEST

MISTAKE EVER

DAMN

NOW I DECIDE

TO STOP CARING

CUS

THAT HURT

WHERE IT DIDN’T

MEAN TO GO

SO NOW

I AM BEYOND

SAD

AND

JUST

MORE TORN

IN A DIRECTION

I THOUGHT

I WAS OK

THAT WE WERE OK

OH DAMN

SHE WAS INSPIRING

ME TO DRAW

TO TRY

TO FIGHT

AND TO BE

ME

AND NOW

I AM LIKE

SO ALL THIS

HAS BEEN

TO ATTACK ME

FROM HER

OH MY GOD

IS SHE

THE ONE

THAT ATTACKED ME

SO VICIOUSLY

THAT HAS BEEN

OVER AND OVER

AGAIN

ATTACKING

EVERYTHING

TO THE POINT

I AM NOW UTTERLY

BROKE

IS SHE

THE ONE

THAT HAS BEEN

TRYING TO DESTROY

ME

I THOUGHT

SHE WAS ON MY SIDE

AND I WAS FIGHTING

TO SURVIVE

THIS HELL

WITH THE THOUGHTS

OF US

NOW I AM

LIKE

TORN ASUNDER

IN A DIRECTION

I DIDN’T THINK

I WOULD EVER

BE

SO

SHE SAID

HURT

I SAID TOO MUCH

IT MADE ME

LOOK LIKE

I WAS IN THE WRONG

ALL THAT TIME

I WAS IN LOVE

WITH HER

AND FELT IT WAS SAME

BUT NO I WAS

IN LOVE WITH

AN IDEA

OF WHAT

SOMEONE

I THOUGHT I KNEW

FROM THE PAST

WHEN

I BEEN SO WRONG

I THOUGHT

THAT I COULD

TELL HER ALL

OF THE PAIN

BUT NO I WAS WRONG

FOR BEING ME

I WASNT TOXIC

OR POISON

I WAS

LOST AND

SHE WAS FIXING IT

FIXING ME

I LEFT

WITH THE THOUGHT

THAT

WE WERE FRIENDS

NOT KNOWING

THAT I BECAME

AN ENEMY

NEVER IN MY

WILDEST THOUGHTS

DID I EXPECT

TO BE TORTURED

FOR LOVE

IT DESTROYED

ANYTHING

AND EVERYTHING

SHE DIDNT

LOVE ME

THERE IS NO LOVE

SHE DIDNT KNOW

I MEANT THAT

AS GENIUNE

CARING PERSON

POINT OF VIEW

NOT AS IT

HAS BEEN

PORTRAYED

IT RIPPED MY SOUL

APART

IN JUDGEMENT

I BECAME

ENLIGHTENED

FOR IT

I

FOUGHT THROUGH

IT ALL

TO STILL BE HERE

BECAUSE

I FELT LOVE NOT HATE

THAT ALONE

SHOULD SAY

THAT I AM

NOT DARK

OR BAD

OR POISON

SIGH

HAVE I SEEN

THIS SO WRONG

HAVE I BEEN

SO BLINDED

BY HAPPINESS

THAT I DIDN’T

SEE SHE

WAS THE ONE

HURTING ME

OH MY GOD

NOW

I AM

TORN SO ASUNDER

DAMN

NOW MY

HEART HAS BEEN

RIPPED OUT

AGAIN

IN A DIFFERENT WAY

THAN

I WAS THINKING

OH FUCK

I GO CRY I CAN’T

EAT I CAN’T THINK

I AM

LIKE NO PLEASE

DON’T LET THAT BE

THE CASE

SHE HAS BEEN

THE ONE THING

KEEPING ME

ALIVE

TO FIGHT AGAINST

ALL ODDS

AND TO FIND

OUT SHE MAYBE THE

ACTUAL

CAUSE OF

MY HURT

AND LOST

AND STOLEN STUFF

AND ATTACKS

IS LIKE

PLEASE NO

DON’T LET THAT

BE THE CASE

SUCH AWFUL

TORTURES

BUT OK I GO

FOREVER

AND

FEEL

THE WORST

PERSON IN THE WORLD

CUS

I THOUGHT

IT WAS DIFFERENT

I SAW US

AS FRIENDS

AND FIGHTING

THE MESS

TOGETHER

AND NOW

TO KNOW

SHE SEES ME

AS THE ONE THAT

HURT

TO BE PUT IN THAT

SPOT HURTS DEEPLY

OH FUCK

OWIE MY DAMN HEART

IS PHYSICALLY OWIE

I GO LAY DOWN

AND CRY

AND JUST CURL

UP

NOW

CUS FUCK

OW

I WILL BE OK

GIVE ME TIME

I WILL BE OK

EVERY PART

OF WHAT

HAS BEEN

HELPING ME

NOW

HAS BEEN A LIE

CUS

OH MY GOD

SHE IS THE

ONE THAT

DID IT ALL TO ME

BECAUSE I CAME

BACK AND TOLD

EVERYTHING

TOO MUCH

TO SOMEONE

THAT DIDN’T KNOW ME

AS I THOUGHT

THEY DID

OH

CRYING MY EYES

OUT

SHE IS THE

ONE

THATS BEEN

ATTACKING ME

PLEASE SAY

I AM WRONG

THAT THIS HURT

IS MISPLACED

THAT JUST

CAN’T BE

THE TRUTH

CUS I LOVED HER OH

I AM SO SORRY

OH HELL

BUT I AM

NOT HER ENEMY

OR TOXIC

I WAS JUST

LOST

AND HURT

AND FOUND

SOMEONE

I THOUGHT

WE COULD BE

FRIENDS

AND

THEN

IT GOT

MESSED UP

AND I WAS ATTACKED

OVER AND OVER

HACKED

AND I DIDN’T

KNOW WHY

OR WHAT FOR

AND NOW

IS IT

BECAUSE

I WAS THERE

BECAUSE

I FOUND HER

OH

DAMN

SHE DID ALL THIS

TO ME

OH OW

DAMN

OK THAT JUST

TOOK MY HEART I HAD LEFT

AND FUCKED IT

OVER

SHIT

I AM SO

GOD DAMN

SORRY

I SHOULDNT

EVER HAVE

COME BACK

I SHOULD HAVE

JUST

STAYED

AWAY

WHY DID

I BELIEVE

IN SOMEONE

OW

THIS FUCKING

SUCKS

IT HURTS

SO BAD

MY ENTIRE

LIFE HAS

BEEN LIVING

AND BELIEVING

IN A LIE

I FOUGHT

THROUGH SO

MUCH HELL

LIKE A SOLDIER

WITH

A PIC IN THERE POCKET

TO A MOMENT

THAT IS NOW

MASSIVELY

TAINTED

IF I WASNT

FUCKED UP

I AM NOW

MY ENTIRE

WORLD

IS UTTERLY

SHATTERED

OW JUST OW

I WILL

GET THROUGH

THIS

SOMEHOW

SOMEWAY

I LOOK

TO WHAT

I AM

AND HAVE

ALWAYS BEEN

AND I WILL

BE OK

I AM STRONG

AND WILL

NEVER EVER

IN MY LIFE

EVER HOLD

ON TO

ANOTHER

SO HIGHLY

TO HAVE

IT TEAR ME

ASUNDER

THAT

IS A FACT

THAT IS MY FAULT